Thanks guys for all your support, it just touched me that so much of u care for JIP's pain that i literally found myself crying in the office while I was standing over the fax machine, i just cried to him, aske3d him o show me my personal גאולת מצרים i told him that my kids need a normal father 7 that i too deserve to finally be normal & i want his help as i know only he can do this for me, i said a few chapters of thilim, which i once heard that when king David composed it, he included all the possible struggles & pains anyone on this world can go through, so it must be mine is included too
So i know he will help me soon as he is the only one who is capable of doing so & he certainly wants to help me,
Thanks u again