Hello. Shalom. That's about all the Hebrew or Yiddish I know. I am the black sheep of this app, so bear with me. I do not know all the words you guys use. All I know is that I have a sexual lust problem and I need more community and fellowship. 
So, here goes. 

I began P&M at age 12. I found my dad's stash under his bed. I used it to escape from my fears, my anger, my insecurities. However, I know now, it made life worse. 
I went to a Bible college after graduation. It was there I found temporary freedom form the use of sexual content to fill my longings. I realized: I need connection! 
I had the connection with my fellow believers for 4 years. Then I got married and moved out of state. 
After being married, I thought that would solve everything. Instead, I wanted more!! 
I sought p&m more. And when that wasn't enough, I sought out anonymous hook-ups. I hit rock bottom when my wife found my fake email and fake social media account. 
We separated. And that was the first of many times. 

Fast forward: 
After our last separation, I sought recovery and fellowship through SA. I have been attending and serving and leading meetings overall for over 5 years. 
I have a great sponsor and a couple sponsees. 
I still struggle and have fallen a few times since January of this year. But, I know what I need and am taking action steps to stay focused on recovery. 

I am expecting to have my first child in a couple weeks and I do not want to bring this into its world. I want to be a father like my Father in the heavens, heavenly places. I want to continue to serve my wife, my family, and Hashem. 
I know I might not belong to this group. But I'm trying anyways. 
I look forward to talking with all of you. 

Reach out to me if you have any questions or comments, or just want to know more about me. 
Thanks. 

P.S. My name is actually Jonathan R.