Day 29

Day 30
When I hit a significant number it always feels good bh, but I need to remeber not to let my guard down because my last streak which wasn't too long ago I reached 40 and when I messed that one up it took some time to get back up, now I'm at 30 and I plan to continue to grow

Day 32
Going back to normal schedule this week which could mean more stress, on the other hand busier.
Going to keep fighting.
gut voch

Today I found myself sitting on my device feeling pretty confident, (I still know in the back of my head that I have to be careful...) and testing my filter which is very good and doesn't let me go anywhere so I don't really have to be worried and I'm going to stop soon because I don't want to ruin my streak and I've been doing pretty well... to make the story short because I'm not really going to go into detail here, I didn't watch any p because as I said my filter works but I allowed my thoughts to wander too much and I spent too much time looking for my comfort, I also didn't end up m, but I feel really guilty and ashamed....

Still feeling this way...

There's a lot more to be proud of than to be ashamed about.

Yes, you weren't perfect, (who is??) but you are doing a lot better than 33 days ago! Like a lot lot lot better!! Your on the right track.

Keep it up my dear friend!!! 

Restarting my count. 
I'm trying to keep in mind my last streak which wasn't only about not acting out but it was much more connecting with my wife and now i need to continue and build off that.

trying23 wrote on 29 Apr 2025 03:57:

Exactly right, the count is there to boost you. If it gets you down then we might be using it in the wrong way. Of course we want a big number next to our name, it feels good!

But the change in ourselves is an even better feeling. 

Keep it up my dear friend!!!!!!!!!

Here we go again
Day 1
Bh at home things started improving as well and now i need to continue building and growing my relationship.

Day 1

I used to think I was honest, but lately I'm learning how tough it is 

trying23 wrote on 02 May 2025 03:14:

quite a honest statement if you ask me

Hey, it's been a while since I posted here,  now comes a update. 

After my last fall I felt terrible and hopeless and helpless and much more, but I still needed to move on and I wasn't ready to post here again but I still came on and checked in daily, bh I'm now holding at day 25 and counting.

A point or 2 from my experiences.

I was back on track for about 10 days and was having a really great conversation with my wife (which is keeping very close tabs on my progress) and as happens the wrong thing was said and although I knew she was right and I shouldn't dwell on it but I was hurt... so I was slowly falling into despair but then (with some coaxing from my wife) I decided to focus on the beginning of that convo and how enjoyable it was and how I can just snap out of it and that's what I did. 

Since then I've been trying to remind myself that I can stay in a good mood and I can control myself.

Hatzlocho to everyone else in whatever part of the journey they are holding. 

Wishing everyone גוט יום טוב קבלת התורה בשמחה ובפנימיות