Day 4
friday and shabbos were hard days in general (every week is) feeling depressed wanting validation from my wife which I feel won't happen for a while (she knows all about my struggle) and not sure how I'll keep this going.
Gut Voch

As hard as it might be, realize that getting validation from a person isn't the important thing, rather getting validation from hashem by doing the right thing

Day 5
Bh feeling the strength to go on thanks to some very special people who I'm in touch with,  it is really tremendous

Hello Reb trying23. 

Just read through your posts. 
I know the feeling of wanting to be validated. (I sent something to HHM yesterday that I won't share here but the feeling of being wanted and validated and not having that, is painful and lonely) 

It seems that you need to be reaching out with more people here. 
I can assure you that we are all with you on your journey. 
Many people will very much identify with your struggles and you can make real friendships with some beautiful neshamos here. 
I did that early on and although I should be even more in touch with them (Red I owe you a call), their love, warmth, understanding, and ability to listen to me get things off my chest, has been key to me growing and leaving behind the life of lust. 
It doesn't solve my many issues in lots of other areas, but BH I was able to push PandM away from my life in a big way that it doesn't hold me in a voice like grip anymore. Of course I have challenges, many many of them, on a daily basis, but the urge to M on a super frequent basis, is way lower than it used to be and I can mostly have a clean life. 
Reach out to the chevra here, make lots of good healthy friendships, keep on posting. We are with you all the way. 
Hatzlacha raba 

odyossefchai wrote on 31 Mar 2025 12:10:

Thank you for your post
I am in touch with a minimal few friends and I'm open to growing it but I'm very slow at it.

Day 6 
BH my feelings have gotten a lot better (for 2 days

So how we gonna celebrate a week??

I'm expecting a massive party

I once posted a thought from the Tanya (I think he said it). Our connection with Hashem is like a rope, Sometimes it may rip, but we can retie it, and when we do the two sides become closer together.
We see that when guys fall and get back up they're much stronger, and our relationship with Hashem and everyone else can slowly but surely repair.

Hey trying23, 

Just wanted to say hi from a fellow yid and lubavitcher, I appreciate your sharing the inspiration from your daily shiurim!

I had a 30 year journey to get where I am today, I went through almost every program I researched to pull myself out of an endless horrific cycle and only just now got to my longest streak of 150 days clean.

Posting here is great, actually talking to the people who have been there and can both understand your struggles as well as offer some support and potential ideas is even better. You can PM me if you like, maybe I can help in some way with giving a virtual hug, some understanding and/or some advice. Either way I'll share a crazy miracle story of the Rebbe saving me from committing ---- over my addiction, I hope that will inspire you to know whose looking out for you.

Never ever give up. 

Day 7
BH not much to share

Day 8