Hi I’m 23, 
I’m in yeshiva and I work and i feel like I’m so alone in the world. I try every week to stop,stop for a few day install filters on my phone etc. and then just end up failing.
I feel like I need to stop before I get married but not sure that will ever happen.

Welcome aboard to the warmest family in Klal Yisroel. What a smart and brave move it was to put yourself out there on these forums. There are amazing mentors and friends you can make here. Reach out. Start with Harav HHM, send him an email @ michelgelner@gmail.com. He will reply with a number to call him at. He is an amazing person. He will understand you.

Hatzlacha Raba and please keep us posted.

I second whatstopsurvivingstartliving said about reaching out to HHM. But really i just wanted to say welcome, stick around, post some, you'll meet some real amazing people. 

Who is Harav HHM?

vibrantlemur66 wrote on 23 Dec 2024 23:38:

Welcome Brother!

HHM is username Hashem Help Me. He is a mentor that has helped hundreds of people and is very k'dai to get in touch with - if you are ready to reach out.

Kol Tov

I reached out although I’m to ashamed to use my real info so I made a fake email. I have to get over this demon.

vibrantlemur66 wrote on 23 Dec 2024 23:09:

You have come to the right place. I have progressed a lot since I joined. I watch my eyes and don’t get triggered. I’ve also
partnered with others for support to not give into the urges. After reading the material you’ll be able to stop masterbating. Reach out and make some true friends 

vibrantlemur66 wrote on 24 Dec 2024 00:07:

Ashrecha!

Hiding your identity is very normal.

How did you stop I don’t see how it will happen for me.

vibrantlemur66 wrote on 24 Dec 2024 00:07:

So did I. Totally normal! 

vibrantlemur66 wrote on 24 Dec 2024 00:20:

reach out to people here. We can be helpful

    Take it One Day At A Time. Try not to think about "how will I stay clean for a week, let alone the rest if my life" focus on staying clean each day at a time. We can only control the present.
    Life is so much more rewarding and fulfilling without being lust ridden. Yes i miss the perception of how I wanted it to make me feel, but i remember how it actually makes me feel. Living a double life is really tough. 
    I hate loneliness too, somemething that helps is try to think about what you are doing to make yourself a better husband and father. This doesn't make loneliness go away but it helps a bit.

Keep on Trucking, One Day At A Time!!

wantingbetter wrote on 24 Dec 2024 00:22:

Nothing to be ashamed of. we are all here for assistance 

jewizard21 wrote on 24 Dec 2024 02:30:

The people on this site have helped me with loneliness. So many have reached out to me and have assisted with my challenges

Hi Lemur, or perhaps we'll call you Lemel
Welcome, dear friend! This is a wonderful place where you can learn that these things don't control you! The nicest family is here waiting for you to join them, so jump right in!
Hatzlacha!