Hello,

This is my first time on the forum. It took me a lot of courage to go on to it. I have been struggling with these things for  awhile. Usually it was M as porn was not accessible. I have always tried to keep all my devices clean. However recently I was exposed to an unfiltered device and I feel into that too for a while. BH that device is no longer accessible so I don't have to deal with that angle of it for now. But now Masturbation is the main concern. I am trying mightily to kick it but I feel like a caged tiger that is waiting for a release. Every walk down the street , to grocery, Bais Medrash, is agonizing. Keeping my head down at all times is my only option ant women regardless of how appropriately she is dressed is a trigger. Is there anyone who has some chizuk or guidance for me?   
In addition I want to be clean from this stuff not because it is not accessible but because it is the wrong. I feel like if I got my hands on an unfiltered device it would be under a minute I would in the depths of this shmutz.

I just wish I can be normal that not every women is an almost overpowering urge to Do P&M.

Can anyone help?