Rabosei thank you to all those who reached out and to those who are worried sick about me. I would like to say that B"H I'm doing better than ever and although I'm not posting or on here much believe it or not I haven't plummeted to the depths that some may have thought I did. Special thanks to the ''yungerleit" that I have met in person over this bein hazmanim definitely reinforces the idea that there are amazing people and tremendous "oivdei hashem" that also have struggled in similar instances as I do. Pretty hard to put into words my feelings of gratitude and admiration that I live with now towards Reb HHM, who btw had all the time in the world for me and my wife (kids too) to meet him 2 hrs before shabbos!!! All I will say is that he is a true real life giant (yes really!!!) who lives selflessly totally here for The Chevra. The genuine love that you transmitted towards me through that hug and kiss is still being felt, truly second to none (well maybe one lol).  May Hashem pay you back "Kiflei Kiflaim" with only brachah in your life. Iy"h I will update the oilam on my personal journey hopefully within the next 90 days.... To those on my hit list just know that I'm a slow and steady type of guy and I haven't forgot about you!!!
-Yaakov from a very hot Yerushalaim

Inside my hot dining room as my AC  decided to die on me, just sitting down to think and reflect for a change. The past year of my life has been quite the ride. It is a little over a year now that my personal struggle navigated me towards a specific site; that through speaking to a specialist in the field (aka therapist) I now understand the depths of this draw for me. ( After speaking to a friend here I have decided that I wont spell out all the details so as not to trigger some that may read it. Additionally, I don't want to cha'v inadvertantly give anyone any ideas, yes I know just a bit how that Y"h can work. If you think it may help knowing about my struggle feel free to reach out.)  I spent an endless amount of hours there literally withering away as I tried to convince myself that my struggle is just different, and resigned myself to the fact that ill just be this two faced guy top/shtark yungerman by day and the polar opposite in the dark secretive comfort of my cozy apartment. Fast forward to now (yes I know I skipped a lot just pressed for time now) there is suddenly a clear world out here (especially in yerushalaim) a calm and serene life is readily available even as you think there is just no way. Due to time constraints this is all for now but my main point is to tell all those out there that think life is hopeless for those that are knee-deep in this struggle just know that with a little work (maybe a lot) your life can make a 180 degree turn and you can get your life back in order. Hope to post again soon so long for now....
  - Yaakov from scorching yerushalaim

ongaurd247 wrote on 22 May 2024 16:35:

This post is just short of a tease !
WE WANT MORE!

I think you know how to reach me!!!  

And what about the rest of us?
What are we, chopped liver?!?!?

proudyungerman wrote on 26 May 2024 14:22:

Foolie would say yes....

redfaced wrote on 26 May 2024 14:48:

Foolie's been shot a while ago, hence his reticence to post at the same rate...
proudyungerman wrote on 13 Mar 2024 02:48:

proudyungerman wrote on 26 May 2024 14:59:

As previously posted your attempt to shoot Foolie has been disregarded disavowed and summarily dismissed by your local WCA chapter your complaints and claims to the contrary have been logged noted and duly forgotten you sir have been deemed chopped liver and the WCA unanimously upholds this verdict kindly forward all further correspondence, complaints and vitriol to your local WCA chapter where it will be lost in the mountainous load of paperwork that has piled up there over the many years of it’s existence 
Good Day Sir.

foolie wrote on 26 May 2024 16:25:

(*Long sigh*) 
When will our dear foolie realize that the WCA doesn't care about him either? Why does he think that they did more than forget his claims, complaints, and gripes?
At best they did the same, at worst the whole thing is just a figment of someone's imagination...

(*Long sigh*)
Maybe one day...

Oh the drivel and excuses and laments you make up because you don’t understand how the WCA works and that there is a real mover and shaker there despite all appearances to the contrary, on the other hand perhaps you’re right that the WCA is just a figment of a sick sick imagination either way the point remains Foolie was not shot  and you Sir are chopped liver

I am anxiously awaiting THE explaination from the Grand Master Foolie...or maybe I am not worthy yet...

POW! 
My dear Sir, you have just been shot.
Good day.
Enjoy the chopped liver!

Sir your aim is so poor if I stuck the broadside of a barn an inch front of your gun you’d still miss. In so far as enjoying the chopped liver your attempts to deny that you are can’t get you out of a paper bag. Finally who says you get learn all the trade secrets honestly if you want these secrets you’ll need to do a better job 

foolie wrote on 27 May 2024 00:24:

KABOOM!!!
Nothing like a good couple sticks of dynamite!

What a shame he didn't cooperate...oh well...
You win some you lose some, I guess

A shame Sir you bought party favors they make a big sound but don’t really do much.
Good Day Sir

ongaurd247 wrote on 23 May 2024 11:15:

Yeah, but the rest of us don’t….  

Please, continue to share. It has value for us, and for you. Connection is the opposite of addiction. 

Here’s a warm hand, 

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