I'm holding by 4 days! Usually I fall on motzi shabbos but this week i tried extra hard to make sure i had no spare time. I arranged chavrusas and people to chat with all evening. Boruch Hashem. Its almost time for melave malka and then bed, meaning I've past the test of the last few hours. With such a good start, Hashem should help that it should carry on on a good note and end off better than ever. Gut Voch.

Boruch Hashem, I'm still holding on. This is the longest I've managed in ages. 5 days!

Still clean, Boruch Hashem, though I had 2 close calls earlier. When I was in bed this morning after not getting up for shacharis, my brain tried going to its autopilot mode of lust but boruch hashem it didn't develop into anything too serious. After morning seder I saw my mother go into work so I knew she'd been working from home until then, meaning she might have left the computer on. Despite my better judgment I headed straight home to check. From what I could see the computer was on. I controlled myself and instead went to the bathroom. Afterwards I fought a bit with myself in an almost hopeless battle and I asked hashem to help. I gave in and went to the office. The computer was off after all that. Thank You Hashem.

Your honesty was reacognized by all from your first post. It should be guide, every time you get triggered - just let loose be honest - start low and slow but say "hashem....I love you please help me...and detail.." i wish i was so honest

Boruch Hashem, I'm still clean by my standards. It was painfully hard for me to pull myself out of bed this morning instead of falling into the comfortable option of lust but I managed. One day at a time...

Goldfish wrote on 28 Dec 2021 22:13:

GYE and f2f both work on techloq filtered computers if that's an option for you

:-) 8 days is amazing! Wow that is a real accomplishment! happy for you. 

I fell. I struggle getting up in the morning and if I stay in bed for too long then things go down hill...
Startung again though and with Hashem's help I'll manage longer next time. As long as I'm still keeping up the fight.

jackthejew wrote on 05 Jan 2022 19:21:

Techloq or any other filter are out of question for me. I know how to find bad things anywhere I look. Only netfree (with the extra settings I have on) is safe for me to be around. thanks for the suggestion though.

Although you fell, those 7 days of passing the test will always be with you! what a great accomplishment.
Keep on trying, you can do it!

You brought a streak of clean days into this world in such a challenging time. Falls are repairable and clean days are yours to keep forever!
Keep on fighting - on day at a time...

I fell again. i went away for shabbos and I stayed in an empty apartment all by myself. Shabbos was good, but Motzi Shabbos I succumbed. I've started again though and with Hashem's help I'll get there one day.

So, what is the plan next time you will be staying alone?

So, what is the plan next time you will be staying alone?I don't plan on that happening. I don't usually go away. The main problem is and was motzi shabbos. At home I have more ways of keeping busy. I need to utilise them, but still at home its safer.

I am feeling great right now. My friend got married last night which really reminded me that I need to start learning how to do the hard things or else I'll never successfully marry. I did a big workout and davened to Hashem and now I'm trying different things to boost my responsibility level.