Hi
I suggest, as I already have many times on this היילחגע site, that instead of taking it a day at a time you take it an hour at a time, or even ten minutes at a time.
Whenever the urge arises, I know that I am at a crossroad. All of us here know the feeling: the sudden heaviness in the head, the heart pounding, the limbs frozen as if paralyzed, and the knowledge that I AM THE BOSS AND I HAVE A FREE CHOICE TO MAKE.
In that situation, "a day at a time" might not work for me. I am fighting a very powerful enemy, whose delicious poison I crave, notwithstanding its devastating effect.
But ten minutes at a time is different. Ten minutes is of no consequence. I can postpone anything for ten minutes, why not לא עלינו a fall?
And if necessary, another ten minutes after that. But. thank you Hashem, the initial postponement is almost always enough to get the monkey off my back and put me back on track, especially if I get busy with some other activity.
May Hashem, who has entrusted us with this terrible נסיון, continue to give us the help we need to succeed in our holy mission of defeating the חצר הרע once and for all. We are זוכה to be on the front lines, and we are the ones who can create the great illumination that will finally bring the גאולה
