Just starting to realise the power of the forum. 
I am currently 8 days clean.
Clean for a full week+a full day b"h. 
Only because I am writing here. 
I don't think I've had a full week clean for years. As in hundreds of weeks. 
And now I am clean. FOR A FULL 8 DAYS! 
For you 8 days my be a doable feat so when you start posting you can strive for much more.
For me the 8 days were a present from God. 
I feel like posting was hishtadlus and it seemed much easier than in the past. Or any way of joining with a group of tzadikim is the way to do your part. For me this only worked through the forum.
Realise your strength! There is so much you can achieve if you use the right methods and try hard enough.

8 days. Awesome. Incredible. The power of the forum.
On to day 9

A star is born!

In about 10 hours I reach level 1: 24 hours clean

In 18 days I will beat my current longest streak 

This mornings post did not have this tone

I just had a phone conversation with my greatest mentor on GYE. 

​This was the most powerful thing that can ever be done on the path to recovery. 

I just spoke to a guy who is over 1000 days clean. Before that he was doing the same things as me. He may have even felt it more 'necessary' than I do now. 

I spoke to someone who is pure love. Just wants to hold my hand and lovingly guide me out-at my pace and in a way that's appropriate for me. 
Does not care to know who I am, where I'm from or what Shul I daven in. 
Just wants to share his extensive knowledge and experience. 

And I now have much much clearer understanding in how to view this habit and Iy"h break free. 

My dear friends 
I beg you
This is the most relieving move you can do
Forget about masturbating as a stress reliever. 
There is a much more pleasant way. 
PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL SOMEONE EXPERIENCED.
SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN THROUGH THIS AND CAN GUIDE YOU OUT OF HERE.
SOMEONE WHO CAN RELATE TO EVERYTHING YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. 

People who have broken free can relate to you. Can love you more than you love yourself and believes in you more than you believe in yourself.

Because we are still stuck in it. They, the on other hand, are looking from the outside and not judging you by what you judge yourself. Because you look at yourself (even if you don't realise) to some degree, as a loser. Because you are stuck in it. 
They are looking from the outside and they see you as a person and your habits as an external 'situation' that is clinging itself to you. It's not you! 
And through a phone call they can help you see that and plenty more that you cannot possibly see by yourself, I only chose one point to elaborate on but there is so so much more I can say. 


Pick up the phone! 

Speak to someone! 

It is the greatest, most important, possibly the hardest though it shouldn't be and the most powerful step towards breaking free

What are you waiting for? Why are you still  reading?
Pick up the phone

All my love to myself and to all of you
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