Congratulation on reaching out! A big step.
Yes, I remember when I was in Yeshivah...the pain etc.
The Mashpia who I confided with was such a special person. He gave me great tips, but they did not help long term. I continued to suffer. And suffer. The feeling of hypocrisy...
Only after being married some years, did I see that it is getting out of control, and BH I am now free from P**n.
With help from the outside, and a strong commitment, it's possible to stop.