Gettinghelp2 wrote on 05 Apr 2018 13:52:
Well I now see and know how this shmutz destroys everything that is good and pure.It makes me a nervous wreck, and separates me from HASHEM,my Wife and kids. It has taken the enthusiasm and sucked the positive energy out of me. BH ..........back here.I'll start slow step by step and see where it takes me .The pain and suffering I've brought into my entire family is so intense I can't seem to get over it. I'm constantly an nervous and anxious wreck.
Dear "Gettinghelp2",
Welcome back. I am also a new returnee to GYE and to SA.
Thanks for sharing openly and honestly. I can't agree more with you about the destruction this disease has caused in my life. I identify about the amount of energy this addiction has depleted from me.
BH since ,I have been sober and reaching out to my sponsor and program brothers daily,it find my energy level increasing and the "disconnection" is beginning to melt.
Hatzlocha and Bracha! KUTGW. Mazel tov on your first SA meeting!