Hi.
I'm 20 now, just finished 2 years in yeshiva and about to start college and I'm what you might call centrist orthodox. However, I have been struggling with pornography and everything that comes with it for over 5 years now. It has got gradually worse and worse until I've lost virtually all my guilt when I stumble. It has even led to me sin with other people. It has to stop. I have to stop. I have to be in control of my body and not the other way round. This is a landmark battle in my life and I will do my utmost best to stay clean.

Welcome. 

Have you spoken to a therapist or a rebbe? In my experience opening up with a real live person was extremely helpful in jumpstarting my recovery and getting the support that i need to recovery and get better. 

Welcome. I'm the same age and in the same basic point in life. 

I totally agree that a major part can be speaking to someone like a rebbi and or a therapist. It was a turning point for me. 

Another thing in his although you call being here a landmark, you can't think this is "it", I'll finally be good now. It may be an integral part of getting help it is not "it". I found that placing my hope in one situation or "landmark" brought me frustration multiple times. Especially being a perfectionist. I was really let down that I still fell after being on GYE or seeing a counselor. I have since changed my thinking. Now I see all the things I did and still do as pieces to the puzzle. All equally important but kind of useless alone. 

Whatever you you choose I wish you the best. Look around on the site and find something that speaks to you. See you around. 

Welcome. It should be with hatzlocha. Great move that you posted. You will meet good nice people who struggled like you and made it out. Stay in touch.

Welcome!  We all want to stop, and have tried to stop - some of us for decades.  What are you going to do differently?  Trying harder doesn't usually help that much. Inspiration is short-lived.  There has to be some change.  There is a lot to learn here.  Check out the handbook.  Check out the dov quotes.  Keep posting.