At age 34 my brother who is a computer specialist was fixing my computer for a virus but instead copied my hard-drive and exploded me to my religious mother and siblings all over world, then wrote to me emails at hotmail in the name of my dead father that I am a child molester and things I did not have on my computer.  all that was on my computer was naked pictures of me and ads that I was looking for sex with a man on craigs list.....I have never touched a child, I even was assistance teacher to young children and live across a school and for my brother who I found out was sending me those terrible emails in the name of my dead father it was so sick. I have extremely a kind hear and gave loans to that brother and helped him out so much. When I asked why are you doing this and sending those naked pictures to our elderly mother after my Dad died, he said I want Mom to know how you got AIDS, at same time I developed a disease in my eyes Glaucoma and now legally blind in both eyes and my family tells me because I did not guard my eyes I am being punished. Ironically now at age 52 I invited a person from my shul for dinner who took me to a sexaholic meeting in a church with all these Rabbis in long beards one of which told me about GUARD YOUR EYES

God forbid I should get AIDS but my brother told the rest of family not to talk to me and over time, all my other brothers and sister eventually talked to me and my Mother is torn apart that he does not talk to me. My mother does not support me however wants me to get married to a woman.

I always thought if I had a loving brother that would show more love instead of hate and they consider themselves religious I might change instantly or for over 15 years no family member even thought of an organization like GUARD YOUR EYES which could have helped years ago and now I am quit old to get married and wasted all these years.

Wow! Thanks for posting here.

First of all, what your brother and family did to you is not religious nor does it have anything to do with Judaism, it is pure evil.

There are plenty of people here that can assist you.

My thought is that you are never too old, you can still make a life of yourself even at the age of 52, you should seek that out.

Hatzlacha

Welcome brother! Thank you for sharing your story, please keep coming back. Here is the place you will finally get the help you have been seeking. While you may feel that your life has been wasted, perhaps focusing on what you CAN do will help you feel better. You never know, you may find that there is hope after all. In either case, I wish you much success, keep on looking up, keep moving forward!

Welcome, Mordchai Hatzadik.

GYE will be a tremendous help for you Bezer Hashem. Keep strong.

Hell of first post

Let us know how we can help

My family has a friend that got married after 50 and has a beautiful family

Welcome!  That is quite a story.  Have the meetings been helping?

Hey, welcome. 
Sorry to hear your pain. 

​You mentioned you loaned your brother money and gave him financial assistance. Could be he does not like feeling indebted to you and mistreating you is his coping mechanism. 

Much Hatzlacha, sorry to hear about the pain you are going through.  But looking forward to hearing about all the joy and success in your bright future with the help of GYE!!!