Thank you all for your advice but at this age of my life how can I solve this I can not find the exit and the worst of all is that I do not know why but now it hurts more than before It is so much the pain that I feel desperate and without exit

Not that age matters, but how old are you?
You may have already found the exit in GYE :-)

Tell us a little more about yourself? are you married? do you struggle most at home? at work? with your cellphone?

Hatzlacha Rabbah!

hi how are you , well my history and is that im married and i have family but de problem is that when i was 8 years an uncle do to me some bad thing and that happen many until i stopped him but now i like mens i dident do nothing yet but i see many  pornography because i like mens to do things whith them now at this day i feel like a garbage im 55 years old

So sorry to hear, that is terrible what your uncle did!

Have you ever told anyone about your uncle, have you seeked more professional help? 
What happened to you is not your fault, 
We are all here to help and encourage each other
I would first focus on healing your wounds your uncle gave you and worry about the pornography and same gender attraction later.

Always remember Yesh Din Vyesh Dayan

I did not tell anyone I kept it all these years to me and I went with several specialists and they do not give me any solutions I'm from Mexico and here the doctors are not very good