Rebyid, opening up about your story is a great beginning to recovery. Gevaldiggggg.

Now maybe try to plan a bit for the future.
hat will you do to avoid falling?
What filters and gedarim can you put in place? 
What will you do when the urge hits? (posting here is a great idea)

KUTGW! (keep up the good work)

and here moirei veraboisei good friends i am on the 17th day gematrie ''tov'', I had today great success bh with a financial issue that i was dealing with a long time. i dont know whats going on shomayim but i feel that it clearly can relate as it states in the sforim when a person gives away from himself even just a tiny little bit...
thanks good freinds for helping me may hashem reward all of you!!