It sounds like the familiar "holding your breath" method. We've all tried it and the pressure just builds until we eventually explode (or act out
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). Then the pressure gets released for a time... until the next time.
Have you read the handbook? Do you have anyone to speak to about it?
We need to learn to live differently and release the pressure in a healthy way before we are "forced" to act out.
Take a look at the handbook. Try some ideas. See if it works for you. I highly recommend discussing it with someone you trust. It is hard to "fight" it, especially when it is a secret. Sharing it, helps us "let go" of it. Which is far more effective.