Rav Dessler noted that when the two guys made a bet who could get Hillel to lose his cool, they made sure to be makdim to him each time they cheppered him (in the middle of his bath): "Rabbi Hillel, I am sure this is a great bother to you and you may lose your cool, but I have a question." He responded, "Ask, my son."

Rav Dessler explains that the hakdomah was an accusation that he was surely inwardly losing his cool already. The guys tried to irritate him that way, hoping that would tilt the scale in their favor.

So far, you have said that to me twice - instead of responding to the thoughts I shared here.

This is not about you and it's not about me. I shared what I have on this matter and if you read it in your head as 'yelling' or something, that's not my business. Please do not be like those guys - for I am not like Hillel. (He already had one of those, so it's good - He doesn't need another Hillel anyhow! )

If this is about anyone at all, it is about arlu164. So....

Hey arlu (first name again!) - how are you, chabibi?

Aye caramba! Thanks so much, I'll correct it now...I hardly ever edit my posts, you are ruining my record. Ha! :'(

Why does it bother you if someone holds the view that powerless does not exist?

Guys, I’m back and thanks for all your comments!!

However reading those lines isn't really answering my question. So to rephrase:
As you all know step number one is: to admit the problem. Am I addicted?? Is it “just” a Yetzer Hora??

I don’t watch **** to get away from stress, pressure… neither do I look at it often, but somehow the Yetzer Hora just always finds a loop hall to bring me down  and then I really tumble down, that is what’s bothering me!

So how do I get out of it?