The roller coaster, again what it means to me is..

An up and down of emotion. I was good today, I was BAD today, I was UP now, I was DOWN then. We arent grounded. we dont have a solid head...

Monday-clean Tuesday- fall Wed.- Clean Thur.-Fall

You know how the emotions are during such a week? It goes something like this "YAY! Im clean today"(happy) "oh NOO how could I be so stupid?? Im an idiot" (depressed) "ok, todays a new day, just gonna pick myself back up again! Hashem Loves me!"(optimistic) "ARGHH! I fell again!! what the heck is wrong with me!? Im a no good failure Ill never be succesfull at being clean" (depressed)

That, my friend, is the roller coaster...

(unless by roller coaster you meant "coasters" (the thingy they put under the beers) on wheels. In which case, the term means something TOTALLY different.. and I, my friend, am guilty of wasting your time)

P.S. "Im sick and tired of being sick and tired" it was in one of the recent chizuk emails. THATS when you let go of lust. your sick of the emotional wreck and you just give up

The following "roller coaster" references are from the GYE handbook:

As one of the 12-Step pamphlets says:
Lusting, for us, is like riding a roller coaster. Once started, it is nearly impossible to stop.
Therefore, lust must be stopped where it begins, with the first drink. Getting out from under the influence of lust, therefore, requires us to avoid getting on board in the first place.

One member of our forum wrote to a newcomer:
… If you want to keep on riding on the Teshuvah /Nefilla roller-coaster, be my guest. But you will just continue making more addictive behavior neuron pathways in your brain, which only get harder to reverse.

@JKG: yashar koach. seems to be clearer now.

@MT: oh, dear MT, that is exactly where i saw this **** roller coaster thing the first time -.- (stil thanks for taking the time)

well. i googled it (sometimes this good ideas come also into my head) just to clarify what the word means. aha. now your explanation is even more clearer, JKG.

hatzlocho guys/GYE's . r"T