Shalom everyone---
Because of all your messages of tikvah and chazak, I made it through a night without giving in to my yetzer and watching porn. Toda. It's been a big problem, off and on, for the past ten years or so. Trying so hard to stop. Not knowing what the matter was with me. Feeling my dear soul at times fly out of me, diminished, weakened and crushed. But understanding more and more why I was born Jewish and how deeply our tradition speaks to me and to this condition of escaping and giving over power to false illusions, gods, golden calves, pornographic images and all kinds of shtuyot . . . And so very far away, in a very dark place, when I waste my energy lusting after images that rob me of my humanity and joy. I have come to embrace that we all have different missions and purposes in this life. I want to do mine to the best of my ability---but know I have to stop chasing after these false images, harness my energies, focus my love and care on my true bashert---and you and GYE are a big part of that. Zay Gezunt to you all!