So fine, you admit you are in trouble. So do the work, do not sit on your hands. Till now you have been struggling hard - but 'struggling on your own' is really all just sitting on our hands, cuz for you it doesn't work! Right? That is what you are saying - it has not really worked and you are feeling hopeless. But now you can have real support, real eitzos, and can admit to others who know like you do vats tutsach mit dir.
Have you read a little of the stuff guys sent you yet? The Handbooks? We've all got work to do, and we all can do it be"H.
