Rabbosei,
I have been doing some pretty serious soul searching the past few hours, and realize that an apology is in order.
BH, I rarely have the nisayon of being dan l'kav zchus. Rarely do I see the bad in people. Perhaps for this reason, Hashem has blessed me with many friends, and few enemies. Throughout the arguments and hurtful words which have now been erased from this forum (from the forum, yes; from hearts? I wonder.) I can honestly say that my opinion of every individual here has not changed. I still think you are all tzadikim trying to get closer to our Tatte in Shamayim.
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It's time for the mechitza to go back up. Women are not invited into Batei Medrash for a reason. The way men discuss things l'shem shamayim is not the same approach as women. My personal pain was brought upon by myself, by stepping where I do not belong. Had I never 'peeked in', I would still be happily oblivious and would not have over reacted.
I sincerely hope that my 'mussar' posts did not hurt anyone. They honestly were not directed at any one specifically; rather towards the overall situation. I was out of place to write them at all. My whole life has been surrounded by arguing and machlokes, and I have become overly sensitive to the slightest hint of discord. This is MY problem, not yours.
Bli neder, I intend staying away, for my own sake.
Kedoshim; keep fighting the fight l'shem shamayim, and may Hashem help us all become the avadim He needs.