pliers never help, only hurt my close friends
i put the pliers back
instead, imagine it was a ugh hgu hug

im workin on it, easy does it (gee im so...) god help me do your will the way you want without my defects getting in the way...and farfel....spilch mookah juwab

all this location-disclosure was really not the point. all i said is that we should meet at  the Haas Promenade at Armon Hanatziv next to Talpiot and bike from there to Neve Yakov and back. not to imply that anyone lives in Talpiot or Neve Yakov. oh well...

if that doesn't work we can just walk around the Old City walls, or how about going to Meron and hiking up to Kisei Eliyahu and making a kumzitz there? bring your banjo and harmonica (and pliers, in case you get stuck on the sabra bushes in nachal megido on the way up)

the joys of the Land...

Actually Zemmy, I only play electric kazoo...

Tzaddik/Avi, you can't imagine what an impact our conversation had on my Shabbos. my heilige rebbitzen also noticed the difference, and I shared the ideas that we discussed with her.

Since our conversation I have tried focusing on those things that get me riled up, worried, depressed etc. and have been reminding myself that my real problem is that I have tried to keep myself in the driver's seat rather than letting Hashem drive...

And even when something managed to get me momentarily annoyed, I used it as a reminder of my illness -my disconnection from Hashem, and my self-deification, and this was a very powerful tool to help me realize that I am indeed ill and that my cure will be realizing that the world does not revolve around me. This is helping me try to "Let go and let G-d". I could go on and on with examples, but it would take me too long. Similarly, I could bring down many Torah thoughts that reflect this idea, but ditto.

So I'll just sign off for now,

E

KI BESIMCHA SEITZI-U!!!

SHE MAY BE A PROBLEM BUT SHE ISN'T "YOUR" PROBLEM!!

Winning means STAYING IN THE GAME!!! בארדיטשוב

YOU WANT TO SEE WHAT??? NO YOU DON'T!!!!

DON'T LOOK..DON'T ACT...DON'T CRY...

mr mba-algeria
are u.....what i think.....can it be...i knew it the whole time....or....

ben,
i was afraid you wernt' mikabeil, wasnt sure what u heard/vayishma yisro/and what not, and thei ce coffee even spilled on my shirt

and seeing you post is so good, because it means your knowing the illness and doing something about it, whether its step zero or 12-and i need to do that everyday, or else i forget and just backwards again
thats why i post so much, in kamus-it is my learning right now, it is my mitzvah overess, it will pass if i dont do it now
im sick
my name is avi and im a sexaholic
i admit to you and all my friends that i am powerless to lust and it has made my life unmanagable
my mo involves compulsive posting on this thread and drinking ice coffee,
it works if you work it so work it your'e worth it

the white book with footnotes from r' aryeh kaplan, awesome, a must buy
serenity prayer with kavanos r shabsi, out of stock, try manny's

yes, all the stuff i see in these books is all from the besht, about bitul and more

i am batul so i better go

raeeti shhayeeta biatar bishaa tesha umashehu, uvikal zoat lo katavta post kan

ani mikaveh shetichtov hayom

achshav ani rotzeh lakachat haliberty lichtov kamah shtuyot biivrit bli seichel bihamatara libalbeil zemirosshabos, vihu shebiemett tzrichim livatzveah ett haeeruah bisimon tzunaty, im harbeh barzel, ulihafnim ett hawhite book ad shezeh yotzeh min ha-aff

trying to make jokes AND do recovery, these things seem to exclude each other without the right perfection

iuee

tzaddik90/Special Weapons And Tactics wrote on 01 May 2011 10:55:


huh?

And now for my post:

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(My new mantra)

Easier said than done...

I'm starting to understand what the lehavdil Notzrim lehavdil refer (or used to refer to as) willfulness, and why they considered it the father of all iniquity. You become so full of your own will that you become blinded to anything else.

Mammesh a gevald.

The only way to let go of all your shtusim and teirutzim is minute by minute...

I could ramble on and on about this.

No time.

Gotta switch the osiyois from אני to אין.

That's where it's at.

Not to fill myself up with yedias haTorah or to slingshot a davening bekavannah through Abiy"a ad kisei hakavod with intense frustration concentration. Not to bombard him with my requests that He do my will ka'viyachol so that I can do His, because that's an outright lie -I always wanted Him to do my will because I would rather not be bothered with His will -r"l. My problem is not caring enough, not appreciating enough, not listening enough, not seeing enough that He has other ideas for me, even if I don't know what exactly what they really are or what the point of all this is, and where He's taking me next. I replaced Him with me r"l.

Instead, try to be batul be'sha'as halimud to the spirituality inherent in the words I see and say  and become a kli and tzinor through which they pass... making me a conduit and receptacle for G-d Himself, coming into my life and cleansing me.

Acknowledging His control of the truck, and trying to accept the destination(s) to which he transports me. Does this resonate with anybody and everybody?

Enough for now,

E

SOMEBODY HERE SPEAKS MY LANGUAGE, for cryin out loud where have you been for the last month and a half!!! tovim shnayim min haechad, and the fellowship of bitul and honesty is now in motion HALLELUJAH

KI BISIMCHA USURRENDER SEITZEIU

YOU ARE A PROBLEM BUT ITS NOT YOUR PROBLEM


(if bards would join SA)

Gevaldiggggg!

P.S. That's your language because you taught me that language... duh!

iuee

IUEEiuee

EE-I-EE-I-O

a mohdzitzer niggun., right?
but seriously_______ and ___