still clean on the chat room thing.  fell off the wagon on the watching porn/masturbating thing.  clean from this point.  my fall on thursday was my first fall on the 90 day thing after 378 straight clean days on it.  Rachmana litzlan.

still clean.

still clean.

chazal chazak v'nischazak

keep up

(but i really believe that you should block "chat" altogether
you dont want to be here ten years from now saying "had a fall clean from this point"

all the best
your brother

Thanks for the chizuk.  It's my parents' computer and I can't really block or filter anything because it's their computer.  If I had my own place I would have no computer at all, it's too much of a temptation.  Still clean.

im not alone wrote on 18 Jan 2011 05:03:

still clean.

Hi, im new to threads or posts and to this site, I just need to talk and hopefully its not improper and maybe someone will be able to offer st usefull. I have been really good ab not "spilling" for a few months and been getting better at guarding my eyes as I have learned are the windows to the soul and directly related to shalom bias which is directly connected to parnassa (which i feel takes all the "l'shma" out of what im doing, but thats a diff issue). So then i was milling ab online and was lucky to stumble on this site, which is def awesome. So i signed up for the daily email and was feeling good and then suddenly I fell for the first time in months... so my obviius question would be "isent this site supposed to help me? Why now that I found the site didnt it protect me? Is it the YH freeking out that im working on personl holiness? Luckily I have been reading the garden of emunah. and have learned to be a Master Returner (baal teshuva) and know that I can start anew every moment so i def dont feel dispare, im just wondering whats going on. I also feel weird ab the 12 steps bc I dont feel the first step, that ive lost control, maybe bc of the conflict of emuna bc I know Hashem is in control anyways...I know im all over the place but this is my first attempt at reaching out ab this sruggle so plz forgive

hi bfrank613, welcome
i would suggest you start your own thread in the Introduce Yourself section, here
www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?board=19.0
that way you can get welcomed by other members and share your story
sounds like you are working on yourself, keep up the good work!
zs

still clean.

Hi bfrank613

first of all let me give an open and warm welcome
you are now part of the greatest most awesome group of people in the entire universe (including me )

How are you doing? How are things going?

just let me tell you, i just chapped a shtikel shmuz with the yetser hora, he cried bitterly that he lost a big fish
i just couldnt calm him, he told me ah if he went to GYE the game is over..

stick to this forum for..... ah.. oh
To be inspired and shaken up to the core
To laugh your butts off

so come on brother
lets do it together. we could do it. hold on tight.

form the bottom of my heart i wish you much hatslucha
your brother

still clean, b'ezrat Hashem

David/Rage wrote on 23 Jan 2011 07:01:


Yes, I am still clean, b'ezrat Hashem.

still clean bro

still clean, thanks to Hashem

still clean, cuh