Man, Uri, you never stop amazing me. The gems keep coming out!
Can't advise you on how to proceed, but one thing I can tell you, is that your posting all this and telling us about your struggles, AND YOUR GENUINE RATZON TO MAKE IT OUT OF IT B'SHOLOM, are an extreme inspiration for me.
Its like I've just gotten a big dose of Yiddishe "excstesy" (or whatever the name was for that drug you mentioned), and its not the first one you've given me.
Uri, my dear friend, all I can say is that since you started posting (I've been following your thread from the beginning) my avodas Hashem in these areas has been better than in my entire life. I keep thinking to myself, WOW, Uri from Yerushalym is battling ..... and I'm going to fall for that (whatever happens to pass in front of me in the zoo we call NYC) ???!?
Shkoyach Gadol, Uri.
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