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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 26 Dec 2010 21:15 #90800

d_teddybear Current streak: 94 days OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Karma: 0	sometimes i can't believe how long i've been clean for. it's a nes from the Ribono Shel Olom!!!
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 26 Dec 2010 21:18 #90801

bardichev	teddyy sit down and listen to bards "DON'T BE SCARED OF BEING CLEAN" this is an important yesod
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 27 Dec 2010 05:25 #90839

bardichev	DT Do u understand what I wrote? Keep on zamboniing! B
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 27 Dec 2010 06:05 #90846

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	rebbe b i hope Rabenu Teddybear Baal HaZamboni won't mind my sticking my nose in on his ice-skating rink but i would love to understand what that means, not to be scared of being clean...
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: desperate teddy writes it down 27 Dec 2010 06:47 #90851

frumfiend	takeh a tifeh yesod
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 27 Dec 2010 08:54 #90857

d_teddybear Current streak: 94 days OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Karma: 0	bards, holy guacamole. how u always know what i need to hear? how do u even KNOW? i barely share anything about me on this place - you CAN'T have scoped me out that quickly. bards, seriously freaking me out dude. oh well...i'm chaining myself down to my zamboni. hide the key for me, yeah?
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 27 Dec 2010 09:45 #90867

bardichev

Desperate, frummy,zeMmy,

I am no navi and have no celestial powers

I have one little thing

Experience

Herrr ois

I went 90 days cleaner than clean

No falls no slips no wayward eyes nothing

I would smudge my glasses in the bank or in the store etc

I would think to myself what's gonna happen when I finally see something

I realized I am scared of being clean

And that being clean means that I am just before a fall

I know it sound warped

So first of all

Every clean day is tremendous

You are pushing back years and years of a certain pattern of activity

Second of all a "yid" needs to realize "ilmalay HKB"H ozro lo yachal loi" you need to recognize that. U are fighting only with siyatta dishmaya

Oib azoi what do I do when I don't feel the urge to fight? (Which is lag vokelleses kasha) that is atzas ha-yetzer

Remeber if sobriety felt so good why did we ever get addicted? Ella mai,taava feels great yes I said feels. We need to learn to do what's good and right and not what "feels".

Let's go back.being clean is NOT being before a fall (laag vokelles if u are reading this thread being dirty does NOT mean u are just before being clean)

So how do we handle being clean? By minimizing the task

Meaning if one were to say I will never... Etc. Yes he may be setting himself up for failure

But if you bring it down to bite size pieces "one day at a time" just today etc.. You will be matzliach

I have mosre to say on this topic. But this is a good start

B

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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 29 Dec 2010 20:25 #91204

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	rebbe b we still want the sequel and are you saying that we shouldn't think in absolute terms? meaning we shouldn't think to ourselves "i am not going to look at porn ever ever again" rather say "i am going to stay out of trouble right now" not to think about or worry about what the future may or may not bring am i reading you right?
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: desperate teddy writes it down 30 Dec 2010 02:15 #91267

bardichev	Zemmey What I was trying to say is. Is. Azoi. We are so afraid we "may" fall. That we actually fall I'm sure dov can be "masbir" my bardish He won't mind returning the favor B
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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 30 Dec 2010 19:26 #91345

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	Bardish, Dovish, Farmish, Knish anybody? me no comprende me no speaka da language
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: desperate teddy writes it down 30 Dec 2010 19:46 #91349

bardichev

bardichev wrote on 27 Dec 2010 09:45:

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CALLLLING ON DOIVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Re: desperate teddy writes it down 09 Jan 2011 06:37 #92473

1daat Current streak: 126 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 713 Karma: 4	I saw Dov getting dirty under the Zamboni teaching a bunch of Yiddin that you can't fix the whole Zamboni with one wrench or in one day. DTB. It's good to "hear" from you.
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