yes,Guard,it's very painful,and one day soon it wont have to be that way anymore
Rachel Leah 4(Conclusion)
There is another aspect of the sister relationship,
That may somewhat conflict with what was said before,
Or perhaps not,
That though the sisters loved each other,
Still, because Yaakov in Lavan’s house represented Golus,
There was still a chism, an aspect of separation,
A certain lack of full acceptance,
Between these two sisters
Because seforim do discuss this subtle conflict,
Starting quietly and almost unnoticed then,
But continuing more openly in later generations,
In the struggle between Rachel’s son Yosef,
And the sons of Leah,
And in the rivalry
Between Saul, descendant of Rachel,
And Dovid, descendant of Leah
Why did Yaakov suffer so many obstacles,
In setting up his family,
Complications that would have such a long lasting impact
On the future generations of the Jewish People?
This next concept I saw from Rav Kook ztl
That we live a divided reality,
Do we live for the moment, or for the future?
We must always balance between
The “here-and-now”
And the “yet to come”
On an individual, communal and national basis
Here is a direct quote word for word of a translation,
That concludes with the beautiful possuk from Ruth (4-11)
“Hashem should place this woman, that comes to your house, like Rachel and Leah, who both built the house of Israel”
Rachel and Leah
Jacob's marriage to two sisters, and the ongoing rivalry between them, is a metaphor for this duality in our lives.
Like all things in our world, the house of Jacob suffered from a lack of clarity. Jacob should have been able to establish his family on the basis of an enlightened present, blessed with integrity and goodness. He should have been able to marry and set up his home without making complicated calculations to prepare for future times. The natural purity and simple emotions of a holy soul should have sufficed.
Rachel, whom Jacob immediately loved for the beautiful qualities of her soul, represents the simple and natural love for the revealed present. Jacob felt that Rachel's external beauty was in harmony with the hidden world of the distant future.
But God's sublime counsel decreed that the future destiny of the people of Israel belonged not with Rachel but with Leah. This future was so profoundly hidden, that its current state - in Leah - was completely concealed from Jacob.
The hidden quality of Leah was embedded in the very foundations of the Jewish people. Because of Leah, we can raise our sights afar, skipping over the present circumstances, in order to attain a lofty future. Just as Jacob found himself unexpectedly wed to Leah, so too the path of the Jewish people throughout history does not always proceed in a gradual and orderly fashion. The future often projects its way into the present, so that it may be elevated and sanctified.
Two Kings
The rivalry between Rachel and Leah, the conflict between the beautiful present and the visionary future, also found expression in the monarchy of Israel. The temporal reign of Saul, descended from Rachel, struggled with the eternal dynasty of David, from Leah's children. And even in the Messianic Era, the divide between Rachel and Leah will continue with two messianic leaders: the precursive redeemer, the "Mashiach ben Joseph" from Rachel, and the final redeemer, the "Mashiach ben David" from Leah.
Nonetheless, we aspire for the simpler state in which the present is enlightening and through its light the future acquires its greatness. For this reason, Rachel was always honored as the primary wife. Even Leah's descendants in Bethlehem conceded, "Like Rachel and Leah who both built the house of Israel" [Ruth 4:11] - thus honoring Rachel before Leah.
