You read the Zohar during lunch?  No wonder you're known as the Heiliger Guard! 

Guard

Thank you for sharing this

and I like your taste of the something you read while you munch

the concept of Hashem as friend is very relieving to me personally and I'm sure to many of us here as well

I'm happy that our Friend showed you this Zohar

which means He also like the taste of the something that you read while you munch

I believe that one of Rashi's explanations of Hillel's statement: "Mahn d'Sani Lach, Lechavrach Lo Sa'avid" (what you don't want done to you [literally, what is hateful to you], don't do to your friend) is that "your friend" refers to the Ribono Shel Olam. 

a song once sung in a choir i heard
"without a friend
how can one live
noone to share with
noone to give
we're all part of a whole
that brings us all together
we're klal yisroel!"

There is a book called “You are not alone” by Esther Gross about dealing with anxiety (Haskama by many, including Rav Twersky)

It comes with a worksheet

Including 20 “Positive Self-Talks”

And here they are

          The day you were born the world became a brighter place

          You are beloved. You were created in the image of Hashem

          View the world as having been created especially for you

          You are a wonderful and worthy person

  You deserve to be treated with respect

You deserve to feel good right now

You may be vague about the details of your journey, but choose the pathway of life. Hashem will usher you along the way.

It is easier to have courage when someone believes in you.I believe in you

You are more capable than you imagine yourself to be

You can face your fears and work to overcome them. Hashem has given you amazing strength to heal

If you feel brokenhearted, realize that Hashem has the ability to save you in the blink of an eye

The world around you is full of radiant beauty and abundance, so that you will have a constant reminder of Hashem

You have all the resources you need to have a joyous life

It’s possible to become whatever you choose (yechida’s not sure about that one)

Your courage to do Hashem’s will in the face of grief increases your merit

          Hashem is always with you, when you are awake and when you sleep

Whenever you feel overwhelmed, surrender your worries to Hashem

You are an individual WITH YOUR OWN TIMING FOR GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT (my “bardichev” font-very important)

It’s possible to acquire inner peace

    I treasure you


It’s a very good book

If you know anyone who has anxiety issues, buy this book for them

(and no, as far as I know I am not related to author)

Another very good book is “When Panic attacks” by David Burns

(not related to him either)

Anxiety is also a big trigger for many of the unhealthy behaviors discussed here

We run to what we perceive is safe, when we want to run away and block out what is really causing you to panick

Can’t deal with something, you try to escape

And we escape to a bad place.

So we learn to find a pleasant healthy place to run to.

Our Friend made that place for us

Anxious
by Laurie J Jeanneret
Thursday, October 31, 2002

Please look away from me
before I start to cry
No there doesn't have to be a reason
and I can't tell you why

No, nothing happened
No one caused me pain
Don't stand there and look like that
While I scream out in the rain

You don't understand
and I can't make you see
You don't know what it's like
this hell inside of me

It cries and it screams
It twists and it turns
It flails and it writhes
and deep inside it burns

I want the inside out
I want the outside in
I want to make it go away
but just how do I begin

I talked to counselors and doctors
I tried even family and friends
but no matter how they tried to help
I always reach dead ends

I yearn to have friends near me
but I scream to be alone
I want to go and live a life
but from the safety of my home

The nights - they hurt the most of all
It's worse when I'm alone
My soul cries out to be set free
It chills me to my bones

Can't someone help me?
Someone help me please?
I beg for your forgiveness
I'm down on bended knees

I see the knife and the pills
It's me I think of first
but I can't do it not again
it's them I'll hurt the worst

I want to die alone for me
but it's for them I live
Their love and heart they offer me
They have so much to give

I see their smiling faces
I feel their warm embrace
How could I think of leaving them
No, I'll stay here in this place

They say the road is long
and I've found that it's uphill
Each step I slide a half a step
but I'll make it up I will

Still the hell is mine to bear
You've done all that you can
and every day I'll take a step
but will you hold my hand?


you think these
feelings are not common
among our brothers and sisters of
Klall Yisroel?of all ages,
but especially our youth?
and if don't hold out for them the right hand,
they will desperately grab the wrong one,
and we know where that path leads.

oh, man....
that was totally written for me before gye.....
wow.
keep them coming yechida- they're gold!!!

did you read my mind?

If These Walls Could Talk
by Christelle Duvenage


If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I‘m on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.

end of poem

the walls are screaming,
crying for that precious child in you,
echoing the voice that cannot speak anymore,
but no one else hears,
the walls scream and scream,
no one hears,
so the child in you leaves,
and frantically takes hold of that hand,
the wrong hand,
that will lead to an escape,
into oblivion,
where you can't hear the walls screaming anymore

I'm not sure why I am doing this
I can't take much more of it

the walls are screaming

take the right hand!!

where is it?



 

I love moishe flinker

since that day many years ago when I read his diary

I will never forget Moishe Flinker

my brother



Excerpts from YOUNG MOSHE'S DIARY
by Moshe Flinker
written when he was sixteen years old; two years later he died in Auschwitz.

Chanukah in Nazi-occupied BelgiumM

December 4, 1942
"Now I end today's notes. I hear a heavy sigh coming from my mother. I had thought that in honor of Chanukah, salvation, or at least a part of it, might have come; instead, we get new troubles.

December 7, 1942
During the last few days nothing important has occurred, either to me or around me. We lit the fifth candle tonight, and Chanukah, the Feast of Lights, is drawing to a close. I cannot hope any longer for miracles on this Chanukah. Every day more and more Jews are being deported- now from one place, now from another. They say that the Germans have special personnel who go around town trying to find out where Jews are living, and they show the Germans these locations, and the Germans come and take our brothers away.

December 12, 1942
Thursday was the last night of Chanukah. My father, young brother, and I lit the candles which we had obtained, though not without difficulty. While I was singing the last stanza of the Chanukah hymn "Maoz Tzur", I was deeply struck by the topicality of the words;

Reveal They sacred mighty arm
And draw redemption near,
Take Thy revenge upon that
Wicked people that has shed the blood
Of those who worship Thee.
Our deliverance has been long overdue,
Evil days are endless.
Banish the foe, destroy the shadow of his image.
Provide us with a guiding light.
All our troubles, from the first to the most terrible one, are multiple and endless, and from all of them rises one gigantic scream. From wherever it emanates, the cry that rises is identical to the cries on other places or at other times. When I sang "Maoz Tzur" for the last time on Chanukah, I sang with emphasis- especially the last verse. But later when I sat on my own I asked myself: "What was the point of that emphasis? What good are all the prayers I offer up with so much sincerity? I am sure that more righteous sages than I have prayed in their hour of anguish for deliverance and salvation. What merit have I that I should pray for our much-needed redemption?"

From the Diary of Moshe Flinker on Why the Jews are
Suffering
Dutch born Moshe Flinker (1926-1944) was from a wealthy, orthodox
family. His parents fled with Moshe and his six siblings to Brussels,
there they survived most of the war. In his diary, Moshe expresses the
pain he feels for the spiritual plight of his brethren.
Moshe and his family were sent to Auschwitz, where he and his
parents perished.
(November 30, 1942)
Now I return to the question mentioned above and its solution: what can God
mean by all that is befalling us and by not preventing it from happening? This
raises a further question, which must be settled before we can proceed further
with the main problem. This second question is whether our distress is part of
the anguish which has afflicted the Jewish people since the exile, or whether
this is different from all that has occurred in the past. I incline to the second
answer, for I find it very hard to believe that what we are going through today
is only a mere link in a long chain of suffering. I find it difficult to believe this
primarily because of the effect that the restrictions and persecutions are
having on me, but I know that it is very difficult to base the solution to a
problem of such importance solely on personal feelings. Doubtless the
Spanish persecutions of the Chmelnicki massacres in 1648, for example, or
other periods of anguish also affected our people greatly, as they were
happening. Possibly the impression made by those events was even greater
than today’s events make on me – this may be assumed from the appearance
of false messiases, etc. But personal impressions are not all-important,
because there are sometimes events of minor importance whose
repercussions are very great, and vice-versa. We should therefore compare
our sufferings and theirs in order to find the difference between them.
First of all, we see that in former times the persecutions were always
localized. In one place Jews were very badly treated, while in another they
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lived in peace and quiet. Secondly, and perhaps more important, is the official
character of our oppression today, and the organization created solely to
persecute us. This difference is really very obvious. Unlike the Spaniards, for
instance, who gave our religion as their reason, the Germans are not even
trying to justify their persecutions; it is enough that we are JEWS. The fact that
we were born Jews is sufficient to explain and justify everything.
To the first difference, we may add another; that today it is quite possible to
destroy the entire people of Israel. The following example may explain this
better. In the Middle Ages when an enemy besieged a city, he attacked it with
fire and hurled stones into it, and also tried to breach the walls with large and
sturdy battering rams. The strongest of the soldiers would grasp the ram and
begin smashing at the walls. The people of those time thought that this was
the height of strength and power. At the most, when a few dozen more men
came to demolish the walls, the enemy reached the limit of its manpower and
strength. But today we see that even a small child could destroy a whole city.
One only has to connect a bit of dynamite to an electric current, and a mere
touch of a finger can destroy the strongest wall in an instant. So it is with
respect to our sufferings. In olden days – for example in Crusader times – our
ancestors thought that the climax of persecutions had been reached; but
today, without swords or weapons, we see persecutions a thousand times
more severe. The explanation is that today everything is highly organized.
They arrange and organize and arrange, until perhaps only one in a thousand
is able to flee or hide. And why can they now organize everything in a manner
that was not previously possible? The reason is, and here we return to our
second main difference, that with the Germans everything is official,
everything is done according to the law. The law condemns us. Just as there
is a law against stealing, so there is a law to persecute the Jews.
So we thus see that there really is a difference between our sufferings since
our exile and our anguish in these terrible times. And because of this
difference we have reason to ask: Why does the Lord not prevent this, or, on
the other hand, why does He permit our tormentors to persecute us? And
what can be the result of these persecutions?
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The answer to these questions does not seem difficult to me. We know that
we were expelled from our country for our great iniquities; therefore, if we wish
to return we must first completely repent of our evil ways and then we shall be
able to go back to our land. However, the prophet foretold that we would not
return because of our righteousness but as a result of the evildoing of our
enemies and of our agony at their hands (such as happened in Egypt). It
would have sufficed had God let us suffer the simple miseries we have borne
until now. There is, however, one further difficulty, namely that even if we
already deserve to be redeemed because of our great sufferings, there is the
danger that the Jews themselves will not want to be redeemed. I have often
asked my Jewish acquaintances what they think the state of affairs will be
after the war, and I have always received the same answer – that everything
will be as it was; we shall continue to stay where we now live and life will go
on as before. But this is not God’s will, and He has therefore removed the
Jews from the houses and cities where they lived, and now they all
wholeheartedly desire to return to out Holy Land, the Land of Israel.
Source: Young Moshe’s Diary, Yad Vashem, Jerusalem 1971, pp. 26- 29.

From the Diary of Moshe Flinker Comparing Tisha B’Av to
the Plight of the Jews
Dutch born Moshe Flinker (1926-1944) was from a wealthy, orthodox
family. His parents fled with Moshe and his six siblings to Brussels,
there they survived most of the war. In his diary, Moshe expresses the
pain he feels for the spiritual plight of his brethren. Moshe and his
family were sent to Auschwitz, where he and his parents perished.
Tisha’bAv 5703
August 10, 1943
Today it is two thousand five hundred and twenty-nine years since the
destruction of our first Temple. On this day we recall our people, from the
defenders of the walls of Jerusalem to the victims of the Gestapo, who have
fallen in the name of their people and their Lord.
On this day our thoughts go to all our people, wherever they may be, and
especially to that part of our precious few who bear the greatest and heaviest
load of the burden of exile. Only a few years ago, when we had attained the
apparent quality of civil rights, it seemed that the burden borne by Israel for so
many years had disappeared completely.
That it is why it has struck us again with greater cruelty and force. Today the
majority of our people is suffering. These people, who only a few years back
were living comfortably in their cities of exile, are now God knows where.
Perhaps they are laboring in the mines of Silesia; perhaps they are slaves on
the fields of Russia. Who knows, and who can tell us? On this Tisha b’Av, in
these days of incomparable trouble, we are united with all Israel, united in
agony and pain.
On this Tisha b’Av of the 5703 our eyes shall fill with tears but we shall not
cast down our heads.
Our troubles and our plight shall replace our prayers, and they shall come
before the throne of the Lord to intercede for His people.
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On this memorial day we shall lift our heads and straighten our backs, for we
most assuredly know that the blood of our people which has run like water,
will not remain unavenged; vengeance shall certainly be exacted.
On Tisha b’Av 5703 the only prayer which we lay at the feet of the Lord is that
the magnitude of His mercy will equal the immensity of the troubles which
have assailed and continue to assail our unfortunate people.
In one of the thousands of pamphlets from the agony of exile, which are
microcosms of the entire Diaspora and which demonstrate the universality of
our affliction, I found the following lines (May God hear them):
Sunken portals
Erect anew
Temple and hall,
Upon foundations
Because of Thy awe – inspiring deeds
The Eternal People will trust in Thee
Thy power shall be exalted forever
As in the time of their redemption.

yechida will never forget 16 year old Moishe Flinker

Moshe Flinker wrote his last entry in September 1943 near the time of
Rosh
Hashanah:

"I am sitting facing the sun," he wrote. "Soon it will set; it is
nearing
the horizon. It is as red as blood, as if it were a bleeding wound. From
where does it get so much blood? For days there has been a red sun, but
this is not hard to understand. Is it not sufficient to weep, in these
days
of anguish? Suffering stares at me as on every side and in every
direction,
and still further troubles appear before your eyes. Here a man and
woman,
both over seventy, are taken away. There you meet a Jew who has been
hiding
and has no money to live, and elsewhere you meet a Jew whose fortune has
gone because he invested it is dollars, which for some unknown reason
have
become worthless. Trouble never ends . . . And every time I meet a child
of
my people I ask myself: 'Moshe, what are you doing for him?' I feel
responsible for every single pain. I ask myself whether I am still
participating in the troubles of my people, or whether I have withdrawn
completely from them."

                (_Young Moshe's Diary: The Spritual Torment
                  of a Jewish Boy in Nazi Europe_ [Jerusalem:
                  Yad Vashem, 1979], p. 122 [ellipses in the
                  original].)

This from a young man who had been marked for death along with the other
Jews in Europe! And yet *he* felt "responsible for every single pain."
Moshe Flinker gives new meaning to the ancient teaching _melamed shekol
Yisrael arevim zeh bazeh_ (all Jews are responsible to one another). The
question he asks himself at the end of his diary is the one that all
Jews
must ask themselves this evening and in the ten _yamin noraim_ to
follow.

L'shanah tovah.

September 6, 1943
[.] Now that I have reached the end of the first notebook of my diary, feelings of thankfulness come over me: first to our Lord, the Lord of Israel, who has protected me and my family in such terrible times, and who has given me the privilege of understanding and knowing His divine guidance and heavenly protection; and second, my thoughts turn to my teacher, my master, and my guide-Mr. Grebel-whose memory has not left me from the moment I left the Hague, and about whom I have written little because I did not feel that my soul was pure enough to speak of this most beloved and dear man.

My Lord, so close art Thou to me and yet so far. I search for Thee constantly, my thoughts go out unto Thee, and my acts as well. My Lord, my Lord, do not abandon me. Hearken to my pleading voice, and have mercy and compassion on me.


this Yid......it's like I know him

makes you proud to be part of Klall Yisroel

I remember him quoting chazals and pesukim of tanach in his diary

I forgot the detail because it was many years ago

Yechidah, this is very nice.... I'm just trying to figure out how / if it has to do with GYE and / or addiction?