Light Notes # 10-Crying out to Hashem -Shemos 5772
Dear Friends,
The Mei Hashiloach puts forth a most powerful and encouraging concept before us. He says that the beginning of the salvation of Klall Yisroel was when they cried out to Hashem from the oppression they were suffering from. As soon as the Bnei Yisroel cried out, their pleas reached the heavens and caused the yeshuah to take hold
Until then, the Bnei Yisroel couldn’t cry. That was the real crux of their Galus. Their heart couldn’t cry out. And when Hashem wanted to save them, He aroused them to cry before Him. That crying, or more precisely that feeling in their hearts to need to cry out to Hashem that was the spark and the beginning of their being saved. Before that time of crying out, a person does not fully feel his lack and his flaws. Once Hashem decides to save and help, that is when Hashem shows a person his flaws!!! The all powerful devastating realization of a person’s own inherent flaws, and that he cannot live with himself anymore, is precisely the sign from above that Hashem wishes to save him!!
Hashem put into this Yid’s heart a special awareness of his flaws and the heavy pain of being in such a state. Hashem sends him the power of prayer and supplication into his heart. When that point occurs, and the lost man or woman cries out to Hashem, that is when Hashem really begins to show His kindness to that person.To heal him or her from their emotional pain. Until that time, the heart was stuffed up, there was a denial, a blockage. That “terrible” rock bottom feeling that creates in a person the need to cry out. You can call that the worst moment in your life. But in reality it was prior to that when the worst occurred. Because that terrible rock bottom desperate feeling that compels a person to make those changes,that is already the beginning of the salvation
And so it is with Hashem chessed that you are all here. Whether “caught by others” or “caught by yourselves” ,when you hit that point when you can’t live with yourself the way you are anymore and ask Him for real to help and save you, it’s that bitterness about your matzav is Hashem’s way of telling you to call out to Him. He is telling you that He is ready to help you. The yeshus has begun. The self awareness, the mindfulness of your soul and how it has been dragged down to the depths, as terrible painful as that may be is actually the seed from where all salvation and healing will come.
In Mitzrayim it was a much tougher situation. Speech itself was in exile. It took this terrible affliction to open their hearts, but it need not be that way now. After leaving Mitzrayim, after receiving the Torah, we don’t need to wait for that arousal from Above. We can tell Him that we are ready to change even if that is not yet felt in the heart. We can ask Hashem to open our hearts to change. But know that once we feel it, once we experience that terrible pain of coming face to face with yourself and your situation, that is when the real blessings take place. But we cant let that feeling just pass. We need to act upon it with prayer and a serious recovery program.