I heard from one of my rabbeim the following.
The gemara says that without HASHEM's help the yetzer hara would always win. This is difficult to understand, because didn't He make the yetzer hara only so we should overcome him. It is analogous to putting a lightweight into the ring with the world's champion heavyweight. It is not a fair match!! So why did HASHEM do it this way?
He answered, if the goal was to win then the question is good. However, if the goal is to get closer to HASHEM, then we understand that He created a situation where we will constantly need to call on Him. We will always remember that we need HASHEM.
I just passed 90 days, and I could not have done it (haven't I tried before!!) without Hashem sending us this website. Just knowing that there is a group out there working on this, and that they did it and care about me doing it was, and is, tremendous. I am not alone, which is how I felt before.
Furthermore, the days that I Slipped and almost fell, were the days that I didn't read my Chizuk emails.
Thanks to you all just for being there and posting your ideas, even if I don't respond!! And thank you to our anonymous angel who sta :)rted this!! B"H, I am here and Please HASHEM, don't let go now.
yearning