Good wishes to all of you,
I am in a tough spot now...
As of now I have no where to be for Shabbos...
I was gonna go to one place, didn't work out..
I often go to my grandparents but that didn't either work out...
Can't be with my parents...
As of now I'll probably be home alone...
Depressing, and Lonely...
I suspect that I wont last out, and will end up using my computer, or just getting in my car and driving off...
I hope not, I really really don't want to, but I don't think I can go through the pain of staring at my cieling for 30 hrs. strate.... It's too hard...
I hope I can do the right thing, but my energy for the battle is low...