Kids, behave!
Cant you see Im busy trying to clean up your mess? >



:D

> OK IT, I'm storry..
There, I said it.

Kollel Guy wrote on 22 Dec 2009 13:14:
The first thing is to admit defeat..................

U know I only apologized bec mommy made me.

Kollel Guy wrote on 22 Dec 2009 11:47:


KG,
thanks for sticking up for me, I appreciate it.

7Up wrote on 22 Dec 2009 13:02:


well, mom, if it was you who cleaned it up, thanks.
I just can't help myself... :-[

so...,
YEEDLE DEEDLE,
how you doin?!

Haha you guys seem to be alot of fun on my thread. Keep it going. My thread is your thread. I am doing good thank you. How are ya'll doing?

im doing alright, B"H.

Thanks for the invite for us to crash your party Yiddle :D
Wish I had time to stop by more often :-\
But outa sight and outa mind are far apart
...so better behave over here, guys! ;D

YOU ARE SOMEBODY SPECIAL!!!

Momo wrote on 27 Dec 2009 08:45:

Momo! I love it!!
You are too!!

Yiddle is that it?? No more posting?? :-\ :-\ Dont think we dont notice. and we miss you.

Thanks IT25,

It makes me feel very good and cared about someone says something like that. I am here I am just kinda lurking in the background because I have been kind of busy lately. Come to think of I have been falling quite alot and it would be good to get my feelings out there.

So because of IT25 here goes:

I am really learning alot about myself by going through the 12 steps. My new main thing is that although I am a devout religious person, I am in no way a spiritual person. If I ever want freedom from this, I am goign to have to find a way to become more spiritual. This might be contrary to how I grew up, how my friends are, and even how I am typing this post, but its a reality. Spirituality is the key here.

Lust tends to take over my mind and body in two opposite situations: When I have restlessnes, irritability, discontent, and fear and also when I feel like I am on top of the world. Anxiety causes uncertainty. Uncertainty causes a breach in my connection with Hashem, again back to spirituality being the key here. When I get a good streak going I am so happy yet when I get too far away from my first day of sobriety, I feel like I can control this. That is my ego coming into play. When ego comes into play I am disconnected from Hashem. And again we are back to spirituality.

You see guys, a common misconception I had growing up was that spirituality meant being Chasidish and I am far from Chasidish (not that there's anything wrong with Chasidim, I just not one). Don't ask me why, that just the way I viewed it. That notion is still lingering in my head. I need to break that bond and realize that spirituality is not connected to "Chasid", it is connected to Jew. We are a spiritual people. All of us in our own way. But ultimately that is what brings us together as one nation.

So there is my rare rant. It felt good. I should probably do it more often.

Thanks IT25

-Yiddle

P.S. Anyone know what happened to Guard, I didnt get any daily emails today?

WOW!! Thank you so much Yiddle2! That was so spot-on. I also operated under some really simple and basic misconceptions. They feel so natural to slip into, and before you know it, I'm slipping out of reality! We seem to discover these chunks of self-clarity over time in sobriety, rather than analyzing ourselves to death "to get to the bottom of things right now", right? At least that's what I've found...
Geshmak! please keep posting about what's cooking with you.
Thanks again.
- Dov

PS. That IT25 is something, isn't he?

yiddle - hope you are doing ok. j'ever need to talk, j'know where to find me. only issue is my getting to look there when I'm not at work. i'll try keepin an eye out for ja.

keep the faith bro, hang in there....

Hey yiddle after reading your post i nust wanna give yu a HUGE HUG!!! From brother to brother. And you even got my Rebbi to back you up. Thats another hug for you. Keep it up.