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Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 24 Aug 2025 14:51 #440743

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KEEP IT UP!!
It's totally normal and healthy to experience burnout, keep on going, you're getting stronger day by day and you're making us all stronger!

Your posts are all to the point and full of life!

you know where you're headed and you're getting there, keep up the good work!

"תנה בני לבך לי ועיניך דרכי תצורנה" (משלי כ''ג כ''ו)
אמר ר' יצחק, אמר הקב''ה אי יהבית לי לבך ועיניך אנא ידעית דאנת הוא לי (ירושלמי)


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Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 24 Aug 2025 15:09 #440745

Great 

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 24 Aug 2025 22:43 #440759

Day #10
Last night i had my strongest urge since the beginning of the journey it was very very hard but B"H i was able to let it pas by like a small wave. 

Throughout the day today i had a couple of urges but nothing major, every time a nisoyan came to my mind i remind myself that i will have to post on GYE at the end of the day and i don't want to have to write that i had a fail.
Giving after your urges even  just a little bit wont help you but it will do just the opposite it will make the urge grow even more it is like someone that is alcoholic in a rehab and he decides that he will only drink one shot and that's it for the day that shot wont quite down his desire for more alcohol it will do the opposite it will make him want more alcohol, the same thing is with those urges when you give after it just a little bit you are like that former alcoholic in the rehab that only want to take one small shot but it ends up in causing him to become a real alcoholic again. 

"You don’t beat this for others—you beat it for the man in the mirror, the one who knows he’s capable of more."

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 26 Aug 2025 01:03 #440827

Day #11 today was one of those easy days. Nothing much really. I had a few thoughts but listen I am a healthy human being and that's how hashem created the world.I really can't believe that I am up to day 11. It feels like it is a dream come true after so many times promising that it is the last time, it finally came true. Thank you once again to the GYE family for your countless resources. It really helps me out. Instead of scrolling through some silly video feeds, I am scrolling through the GYE video library.
"I am building a life I don’t need to escape from."

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 26 Aug 2025 13:16 #440848

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Keep up the great work, you aee a hero, you are strong, you will win.

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 26 Aug 2025 13:19 #440849

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Keep up the good work!
I recently listened to this great shiur which will help you appreciate the greatness of what you are doing each time you overcome these difficult nisyonos! mytat.me/a389568
In the place where ba’alei teshuva stand, even pure tzaddikim who never sinned cannot stand. (Rabbi Avohu, Brachos 34b)

Great free resources:
My favorite book for breaking free: The Battle of the Generation 
https://guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Change your attitude and change your life!

Rabbi Shafier's incredible lectures on breaking free: The Fight. Download here: 
https://theshmuz.com/series/the-fight/

If you're only ready to try something very small (recently updated and PDF available):
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/378128-Captain—Shtarkemotionals-Secret90Day-Challenge

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 28 Aug 2025 01:36 #440919

Day 13!! Today was the hardest day until now specially the last few hours (which was probably the hardest in my life) i was fighting for my life!! The יצר הרע woke back up and he came in full force I tried all techniques but nothing seamed to help and it didn't look like he is about to give up he cam back again and again every few minutes and the urges didn't become any easier it just became stronger and stronger by the minute. 
But hashem helped me over come the fight and i won!!!  

I took out a few lessons from todays fight:
1) I have the ability to fight back if i really want to 
2) that eventually the urge will go away and my state of mind will return to normal.
3) That the good feeling of not giving in is worth more then all pleasures. 

I know the battle isn't over. The Yetzer Hara will try again tomorrow. But today was proof that with hashem beside me I can win, and i will win

“איזהו גיבור? הכובש את יצרו.”
“The fight you’re in today is building the man you’ll be tomorrow.”

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 28 Aug 2025 13:06 #440927

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WOW!!
KEEP GOING!!

It's amazing how you post every day, your posts are full of life and bring out the struggle and successes so clearly!
Keep up the amazing work!
חזק ואמץ

"תנה בני לבך לי ועיניך דרכי תצורנה" (משלי כ''ג כ''ו)
אמר ר' יצחק, אמר הקב''ה אי יהבית לי לבך ועיניך אנא ידעית דאנת הוא לי (ירושלמי)


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Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 28 Aug 2025 13:28 #440931

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Wow wow wow.
you are just a superman,
you have no idea what nachas u made in shumiem, the malachim are dancing.
this entier scene was played live in shumiem and all the malachim were looking to see what would happened and when you won they all stood up gave you a standing ovation 

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 29 Aug 2025 01:43 #440973

Day #14!!! I am actually crying when writing this post and recognizing that 2 full weeks have passed since I started this journey. Two weeks ago at this time I hit rock bottom and I said to myself enough is enough, it is time to stop once and for all and I will do it at all cost.
To be honest this wasn't the first time that I made this promise but the difference was that this time I had GYE and all of its resources behind me.
Those two weeks were one of the most transformative 2 weeks in my life. It tottaly changed me in a way that i never thought posibule. I feel much closer to hashem right now then what i felt for a while. I feel like a newborn baby right now.

Thank you Hashem for helping me overcome this battle!!
Thank you GYE for being the right shaluach in helping me overcome this fight!!
Thank you to all members (brothers) for giving me this warm support!!!

חזק ואמץ אל תערץ ואל תחת כי עמך יהוה אלהיך בכל אשר תלך"-יהושע"
“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you’re not going to stay where you are.” — J.P. Morgan

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 29 Aug 2025 02:00 #440974

I just looked at the calendar because I wanted to see when the fortieth day would be, and I was shocked to see that it falls on none other than Rosh Hashanah! This is a clear message from Hashem—that He is with me in this battle and watching every step I take.
"גם כי אלך בגיא צלמות לא אירא רע כי אתה עמדי"

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 01 Sep 2025 04:09 #441064

Day #17
Just another day as a new person. Looking from my current point of view, I can't understand what I was thinking when I gave in to the urge. How stupid was I to think that it was worth giving up so much just for a few minutes of pleasure? I can’t change what I did. All I can do is learn from it. I want to remember this feeling next time that urge comes creeping back that temporary pleasure is not worth the cost of what I truly want.

"What once felt irresistible now feels ridiculous."

Re: Today Thursday was the last time in my life!! 01 Sep 2025 17:53 #441089

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Dear brother Hagaon R' lasttimewashursday shlita

Keep up the great work!

you're giving us all chizzuk!
I hope you get to rosh hashana at 40 days אל תעצבו כי חדות ה' היא מעוזכם

"תנה בני לבך לי ועיניך דרכי תצורנה" (משלי כ''ג כ''ו)
אמר ר' יצחק, אמר הקב''ה אי יהבית לי לבך ועיניך אנא ידעית דאנת הוא לי (ירושלמי)


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