Dear Simcha (Simches Torah is already way in the past) it’s time to get with the times……..
Living in pain and feeling vulnerable is what makes us human, it’s makes us be good Yiden.
I have been learning a lot of Bitachon the last year and a half and I found something very interesting.
Half of the Sefer Chovos Halvovois is devoted to NOT rely on oneself and others, realizing that NOBODY can really help you, your money, intelligence and power can be gone with the wind, so don’t rely on them! Rely on Hashem.
I realized that I can’t relate to that, who relies on someone else? Who is there to rely on B’chlal? Who is even interested in helping me? What is he even talking about?
Then I chapped! Yes, most people do rely on someone or themselves to a big degree, some consciously and some unconsciously. So they need to first stop relying and then learn how to rely on Hashem.
But, Myself and I think you can relate to this, we are missing that first part…… we never learned how to rely on anyone or anything! The world was always a terrifying, unforgiving, unfriendly spooky house…….. everything is up in the air, and if we blink everything will come crashing down!
From that perspective, we are further along the path of Bitachon than most others.
Im not just guessing so, I’ve been talking to people about this and I see that it’s incredibly hard for people to get close to Hashem because they are so entrenched in their little fiefdoms…. “I hustled all my life, and that’s why I’ll be rich one day”
“ I didn’t let myself from anyone, I will teach them”
Etc. everyone with their little imaginary kingdoms ruling over everyone…….
I already know what’s NOT true, now it’s easier to learn how to trust the only real source of power in this and all other worlds, Hashem!
So get up from the floor, and start dancing, you were chosen for a mission, you have a special journey that nobody before or after you will get to do. You are on the right path, you are heading towards freedom, you will get there, meanwhile, you will teach a lot of people who in a similar situation how to overcome, how to persevere, how to use your struggles as a guide towards holiness.
Keep on growing, keep on shining and making Hashem happy……
