בס"ד
Hey, how's it going hope everyone is well Im going to try give a quick run down of my story soo I was born in israel moved to England at the age of five I guess I grew up as a normal kid until the age of around 12 I was exposed on my grandads computer in his workplace to what would be the battle that I'm still fighting today at the age of 25 so life moved on my parents got divorced when I was 13 and it all went downhill from there I was getting ipods, ipads for my bday presents with my dad having no idea what full Internet access could do to a kid but it hit hard when I discovered the world of porn my little secret, fast forward a couple of years I finished high school and went to a yeshiva/collage wasent there for to long I'm guessing bc of my struggles bc everytime I would get off I would go home and go on the iPad, so after I left that yeshiva I got into the world of drugs mostly smoking weed this would be a nightly thing in the park so I was working job to job but mostly messing about and smoking weed but knowing deep down weed was a problem for me as I would enter this world of over thinking to the most extreme level, so I ended up going to israel for a gap year yeshiva where the problems started getting worse I would drink every night and go out and party and chase women I broke my viginirty in Israel and ye that was that, so after yeshiva I entered this pre army program that I saw my freind do and thought It will be cool to join the army in Israel, so I did that program it was very difficult but at same time fun, fast forward around a year later I joined the army I got into an elite unit, but I guess with all the messing about that I did I wasent at all prepared for that mentally, so a couple of months into the army almost a year I left by telling them I want to kill myself they let me go no sweat
