I agree, get a filter...

Sober. Sunday night is here with the temptation. Various emotions and tiredness (busy and productive day)...I can feel the temptation coming...the YR trying to play on the triggers that I encounter today and some of them were not small triggers. Sunday night + Monday morning VERY slippery zone for me...I will need Hashem strength to get through it

you got this!! We believe in you!! Keep us posted

Dear Ben
We're all here rooting for you and are hoping for good news from you. You're part of the family of guys here and we know how you feel. Begin in a slippery place is never fun but just imagine that feeling tomorrow when the slippery situation is over and you come out victorious! That'll be sure to put a smile on your face that'll never leave! To make it through a tough one is super hard and the victory is therefore so much greater! keep us posted!

Just reading your comments now. Thank you. I acted out again. Back to zero. Coming back up again and re-starting...

On the other hand, you now have a full week to figure out a plan for next Sunday night/Monday morning. Maybe consider having to text someone or a few people, at different points over this time period next week. I feel that it helps make the battle easier knowing that i have to text someone every morning and someone else every night

benblum wrote on 06 Nov 2023 18:58:

Please explain what led to your fall, it’s important to keep track so that you will know to avoid it, we can help you.
do you have easy access to unfiltered internet? Or is it just Masturbation? With others? Where are you holding?

What led to my fall: alone at work with a computer, laziness and looking for an escape...I have an accountability software installed + a filter but I know how to by pass both...I manage to uninstall the software and I know the password to the filter...Then I use triggering social media that usually lead to p..n and to masturbation....

Hi everyone, back to update. I had a clean night, sober this morning. Working on day 1. Need to decide a real strategy/plan otherwise I stand 0 chance to succeed. I need to have a daily plan of action. My goal today is to make one and maybe share it in the forum later

benblum wrote on 07 Nov 2023 13:36:

I will say it till im blue in my face, the first stratagy is to get a strong filter that CANNOT be removed! I hear that you know how to get around some filters, but there are some very strong filters that you CANT remove or it ruins your whole computer. Also a good webchaver cannot be removed. Without this first step i dont see how its possible to get started

benblum wrote on 06 Nov 2023 18:58:

Disagree with this one, you are not back to zero at all! If you don't learn a lesson from this fall you might be -1, if you do, than this is another step on the ladder of your journey towards greatness and victory! Now is time for action! The fall doesn't define you, the reaction does!
Make a plan as you already started to, also create a goal in order to get you motivated.
Kol hakavod for your honesty! I love it.

All the best
True self

Thank you for your encouragement True_self. It is encouraging.

chancy I agree with you. However, I managed to remove webchaver (covenant eyes) way to easily each time I want to act out unfortunately. I have a filter called qustodio but I am managing it so it is basically not a fair fight. I cannot administer my own filter for obvious reasons. So I am looking for someone to take over the control of my filter. I should hurry in this search. It is night time and the yetser hara is trying to push me to just take a quick look. Not p...n but social media, not 3 hours, just 30 sec...The usual tricks for which I fall all the time...Guess what I am sending this message and I am going...TO SLEEP! more tomorrow morning...Thank you all!

Good morning Everyone, I did exactly what I wrote yesterday. Closed the computer and went to sleep. It felt SO good and this morning I am filled with enthusiasm and good energy. Won one small battle yesterday night and I have to give the credit to Hashem and to you guys. Before I wrote the message on the forum, I was about to give in. After, it was a totally different situation. Amazing the way it works. I have to calm down my enthusiasm though. The yetser can build on that to make me fall and lose the little bit of sobriety I have...

I am suddenly alone at work. Definitely a test from Hashem to calm down my enthusiasm. Ok. I am a little tempted. I want to commit to this group that if I were to give in, I would first make one phone call and go for a walk outside before giving in. Only after that I can give in. That's my commitment. Thank you for being there for me.

We‘re all eagerly awaiting the good news at the end of the day. Do you have someone you can text/email/message throughout the day? Maybe every hour on the hour. It might make it easier by focusing one hour at a time