I think you didn't understand completely my main question. I completely understand that there's such a thing of "fetishes", and that is pretty normal. What bothers me is that I have the same fetish for men as well, (and no, I don't think I'm SSA, although I might enjoy looking at a nak*d man, but I would be "farekeled" to do something with a man - bH), so I have this nisayon even in bhm"d. My eyes would search under the tables to look for somebody taking off or dangling his shoe (!!, sounds crazy right??, believe me I feel horrible about it), this has been going on since I'm a kid (tens of years). In fact the beginning of my PM problem has been only thinking and fantasizing of friends in yeshiva dangling their shoes (how crazy, right??!!), if I Wouldn't have the problem by men I wouldn't come to any addictions whatsoever, since I was a very ehrliche bochur to begin with, it's only after I got hooked up with the above that it "shlepped" me to other stuff, that's on what I was wondering if somebody can relate to this. Anyway, thank you for your reply.