I don't really know what to say, but I'm here because I believe in myself when it finally comes down to it. I know I'm a person who needs to make a change and can't seem to do it. But I also know that deep down, part of me hungers for porn, doesn't want to give it up, thinks life can simply float by unchanging while I sate my desires. In fact, welcomes this even as I age and even as I see life passing me by. Fear of change, fear of action, fear of feeling, fear of truly living, fear of all that life might offer but which might imply choosing and judging and standing by one's choice come what may - or adapting it, as the case may be. 

We only have the power to change the present moment. "Right now, I choose that this moment will be clean!"

DavidT wrote on 15 Jun 2021 16:49:

Just to clarify for myself (and maybe others):

1. We cannot change the present moment; that has passed.
2. We can live in the moment. [I spoke to a fellow many times last night who was truly livin' blissfully in the moment - like he hasn't been doin' for years - t'was nice to hear.]
3. We can choose now how we would like the next moment to be. We can pray as well.
4. Godspeed on all the next moments!!!