Holy Yid wrote on 17 Jan 2010 00:44:


And I thank Dov that he has sent me to God!

Cute

But Dov showed us the road to God. We choose to take the the path to God

Holy Yid wrote on 17 Jan 2010 01:14:


Mai Nafkah Minah?? Not sure what the difference is from what I said but I was trying to be cute (and still somewhat serious)

-Yiddle

Your post implies that Dov that took us to God. I say that Dov cleared the path and we CHOOSE to fallow the path.

Eh symantics...

NO NO NO NO NO.

You MUST be in the driver's seat here not the Y H

I was clean for 12 days and then fell.

I have TONS of stress in my life and I am in Yeshiva and some of my Chavrusas are not working out so I do not have a strong focus and do not feel that I am accomplishing. So when the stress gets high I tend not to try hard to resist.

I need advice on dealing with stress and motivating myself in this area even if I don't feel motivated about other things in life.

Today I wanted to fall I told myself I will wait 15 minutes. I waited and when the time was over I no longer had an urge.

Baruch Hashem! Thats greta to hear. You are clearly a HOLY YID. 

Keep posting away brother.

Holy Yid wrote on 21 Jan 2010 01:10:


That is incredible!

In general, it's hard to beat this battle if you have nothing else going on. I would suggest that you figure out other things you can do to keep yourself busy, and accomplishing in some way, even when chavrusas, and even learning, aren't going so well.

Try doing some exercise, going for a jog, etc?

Holy Yid wrote on 21 Jan 2010 01:10:
That's really the best way to do it. This is actually R' Dessler's instructions for defeating the Y"H.

a daily jog will do me allot of good. I will implement that. Today I had I another clean day.

I go back and forth between wanting to throw in the towel, feeling that there is no hope, and knowing that this is bad and I do not want to do it.

Today I made myself a red line. It is a small place I wont go past. No matter what.

Thanks for the kind words. It really helps to have guys respond to me.

All for one, one for all...

Jogging can help in lots of ways - it's a good outlet for energy, that's definitely a half hour when you're not doing anything wrong, it makes you feel good about yourself, which generally helps in a lot of ways...

It's also a great reminder of the fact that even when your body tells you "enough - you have to give in," you can say, "nope, I'm going a little further!"

I am still here. I am over a week clean. MAZAL TOV to me.

Not much to add but I will keep on trucking.

I actually had an eye opening chat with Bardichav but I don't have time to post it now. will try soon.

Keep on trucking.

I wish I had my own slogan

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