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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 22 Dec 2009 09:13 #36709

Kollel Guy

Kollel Guy wrote on 21 Dec 2009 10:57:

OK, your in an extremely vulnerable state right now. So do yourself a favor and forget about the fall for a week. Right now, you gotta look at your fall with a most cold and uncaring attitude. All your focus should be on now is not to fall again. All your guards are down now, because atzvus paralyzes all the strenghts of the neshamah. In a week you can think about what happened and where you need to work on in your inner being. Those thoughts however should be off limit to you for now.
You have to literally pretend this didn't happen if you want to minimize the blow. Just block everything out and ignore it for now, focus on how to block up all paths to falling again, and when your back to your right mind - you can do some soul searching and fix this thing.

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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 22 Dec 2009 12:51 #36801

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	Holy Yid wrote on 22 Dec 2009 08:56: I fell again. I am only writing this because I don't want to and honesty is good. Sorry to hear about your fall. But were really happy to see you post about it. Only good could come out of it. Wishing you much hatzlacha. Always feel free to pm or gchat.( not getting rid of my internet any time soon )
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 22 Dec 2009 13:45 #36826

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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 22 Dec 2009 20:50 #36966

tester613 Current streak: 286 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 181 Karma: 1	Did you see my email today?
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 22 Dec 2009 21:28 #36985

Holy Yid Current streak: 92 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Keep the mind engaged and the soul content Posts: 894 Karma: 1	Ykv_schwartz wrote on 22 Dec 2009 20:50: Did you see my email today? Yes. Thank you I have not yet had time to dwell on it. I will get there. It is good to know how much people really care. I just held back from lust. Day 1 guy. YAH
	זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים Last Edit: by naarim15.

Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 03 Jan 2010 21:52 #41527

Holy Yid Current streak: 92 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Keep the mind engaged and the soul content Posts: 894 Karma: 1	Hi I am back. I have fallen a few more times, the most recent being Friday. I let myself fall saying that I was only starting out on 90 days so I can always start over. Then it hit me that if I think like this I will continue thinking like this FOREVER. So I am challenging those thoughts. The begins are hard as I do not have momentum. But I am embracing what I need to do.
	זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים Last Edit: by renewedlemur21.

Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 03 Jan 2010 22:16 #41552

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Holy Yid wrote on 03 Jan 2010 21:52:

Hi I am back. I have fallen a few more times, the most recent being Friday. I let myself fall saying that I was only starting out on 90 days so I can always start over. Then it hit me that if I think like this I will continue thinking like this FOREVER. So I am challenging those thoughts. The begins are hard as I do not have momentum. But I am embracing what I need to do.

Ah your such a holy yid. Sorry to hear about your recent falls. But as long as we take the good from the falls we can just turn around and tell them fell shmell. So just pick yourself up and wipe yourself off and cont going. Wishing you all the best and hatzlacha.

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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 07 Jan 2010 03:48 #43206

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Hi I am checking in. Just wanted to touch base. I fell since my last post. BUT I am not broken. As we know we have to keep on trucking. I recently saw a thought that gave me allot of chizuk. Rabbi Moshe Sher worked for many years to help pass a law that the US goverment should fund Yeshivas. After it was passed the Supreme Court struck it down. Rav Hutner wrote Rabbi Sher a letter of chizuk. Rav Hutner writes that biggest zechus Klal Yisroel has is the Akaiyda. All the was is an act of trying. Avrahom did not succeed in shechting. He succeed in TRYING. That is what we all should aim for. Go for trying.

זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים

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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 07 Jan 2010 05:33 #43228

kollel guy Current streak: 15 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 478 Karma: 1	Sorry to hear about your fall. However it's great to see you get up like that. Let it be his ratzon - that you go strong from here to 90 and beyond!!
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 07 Jan 2010 10:42 #43299

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	Thanks for sharing HY. Sorry about the fall. Check out my last post here. Same goes here Keep on dancing youll get there soon enough!
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 07 Jan 2010 17:41 #43440

Holy Yid Current streak: 92 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Keep the mind engaged and the soul content Posts: 894 Karma: 1	I still am not out of the mud. I am not very motivated to really do the hard work that it takes. I guess I am not in enough pain yet. I am trying to remember that if I don't get back on the wagon I will loose control of my life AGAIN. Any thoughts?
	זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים Last Edit: by bytesyse.

Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 07 Jan 2010 20:43 #43507

Cleareyes613 Current streak: 272 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 399 Karma: 1	Read through Chizuk email 1-50.
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 08 Jan 2010 11:32 #43742

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	Holy Yid wrote on 07 Jan 2010 17:41: I still am not out of the mud. I am not very motivated to really do the hard work that it takes. I guess I am not in enough pain yet. I am trying to remember that if I don't get back on the wagon I will loose control of my life AGAIN. Any thoughts? very important!!! Hit rock bottom while your still on top!!! Think about it!!
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Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 11 Jan 2010 00:51 #44225

Holy Yid Current streak: 92 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Keep the mind engaged and the soul content Posts: 894 Karma: 1	I spent a lot of time on shabbos thinking about how if I don't take work on this I will be miserable for the rest of my life and I will miss out on many very rewarding and fulfilling experiences. I think I am more on track than I was in the past couple of weeks.
	זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים Last Edit: by .

Re: Holy Yid's Continuing Journey 17 Jan 2010 00:44 #46129

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Hi guys. Thanks G-d I am still clean. I think it has been around a week now. I also most thank DOV. That's right, G-d and his messenger Dov. Last week I was very down and I wanted to fall even without the web. BUT then I remembered what Dov always says- our problem is not with p*** or m****** rather it is with LIVING. We do not like (beat up on me for saying 'like' and not 'know how' but I think that our word choice is very important. We need to tell ourselves we CAN DO THIS) to deal with negative emotions so we hide in mind numbing activities.

I told myself I need to feel this and live with it. It was hard but I spent quite time with myself and felt what I was feeling. And guess what I am here to tell the tale.

I thank G-d that he sent me Dov.

זכרני נא, זכרני נא, וחזקני נא אך הפעם הזה, הפעם הזה, האלקים, ואנקמה נקם אחת משתי עיני, מפלשתים

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