Still not out of the mud yet.

Don't hesitate to call if needed tzadik!!

Too late just fell again.

Holy Yid,

What did people do bain hazmainim before there were computers?  Is a computer the only thing you have to do at home?  Don't turn the computer
on.  Whatever is so important on the computer you can go buy a newspaper and see that your taxes are going up, you're being forced to buy
health insurance or else you'll be fined and you now live in a Socialist Country.  If you need to know anything else, call me and I'll tell you what else
is happening in the world.  Oh, by the way, there was an earthquake in Haiti, A volcano in Iceland, plenty of crime to go around everywhere and Israel
is still standing.  ;D

The way to get better is to do service for other people.  help clean for Pesach, bake Matzoh, cook, DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE FOR YOURSELF
and you'll feel better about yourself, your matzav and your matzo.

Have a Happy and Kosher Holiday of Freedom from the Mitzraim of this addictive disease.  :'(

Elya

Elya thanks for the post.

still falling.

fell again. I AM FED  UP WITH THIS! I AM LIVING IN A HAZE I HATE THIS WAY ON NOT LIVING! TIME TO GET BACK TO EARTH BUDDY!

I SHOULD CALL THIS WALKING DEAD OR SITTING AS THAT IS WHERE IT IS. IF MY COMPUTER WAS NEAR ME I MIGHT BREAK IT! QUuestion for wise men and drunks- where to I direct this energy?

Hellooooooo? Any one hoooome? Guys we have more chamitz in our souls than in our houses.

Holy Yid wrote on 28 Mar 2010 14:39:


Very correct statement. But we also have the potential to have tons more kedusha in our souls than in the house.
You MUST seek out productive things to do instead of wallowing in sorrow. Ex( learn w/ a chavrusa, help clean, go outside for a walk, play a game/sport, call a friend)

Wishing you all a pesach that will clean you from chumitz of mind body and spirit and you will count sefira  up to new heights.

Holy Yid, I have been reading your posts, even to some of the Marbetzi Torah on this forum and it seems your anger and resentment
is surfacing in the way you are approaching others.  Since we've spoken about interpersonal relationships being important to you, I
would suggest you tone down the "You Should" types of comments, especially if you are continually slipping.  It would be a lot more
productive to shut the )(^)*(&^%)(*^%) computer off and read a nice book.  Staying on this computer, even without looking at
anything destructive is still addictive and harmful when you're still in a state of addiction.  Please do yourself a favor and work as
hard at stopping as you are at texting.

Elya

Elya, do you mean staying off the web or being more accepting of people or both?

for the record today I spent time enjoying myself and taking care of my needs. I did things I wanted to do but have been pushing off. This all helped to keep me out of the mud.

Holy, I meant both but I'm not here to tell you what to do.  I just know for me when I'm more accepting of others, I feel better about myself and
I don't want to act out.  Seems like you're talking care of yourself today.  Sounds good.  keep it up.

Elya

Elya, thanks for the kind words. I feel bad about not making the call tonight but I decieded to do something I really wanted to during that time.