Someone knee-deep in therapy may very well be working through what he is running away from etc., the thing is, that doesn't minimize the pain during the process. In fact usually it exasperates it in the pain.

"The Truth" is that I miss your presence here... (Maybe your busy suing the Truth social for taking your name?...) 

Sapy wrote on 21 Jun 2022 13:58:

I'm back. I was really busy the last couple of weeks and didn't have much time.

Today was a bad day, I watched porn and masturbated.

I wish I didn't have to deal with this struggle but I guess that's not up to me.

Why would anyone take away a karma for posting that I had a bad day?! 

i put one back!

I also added. See, you got a net gain!

Now I gotta get back into things, I haven't done real porn in a while.

I went to the Kosel today and cried. I don't want any of this. I opened up a Tehillim to a random perek and it was talking about how if someone believes in Hashem, then he is not afraid of even the worst challenges. I am not sure how to understand this. I don't think it means simply that someone who believes in Hashem can overcome every challenge. I am thinking that it means that challenges come with pain (growing pains if you want) and that pain is what we are afraid of. Dovid Hamelech may be addressing the pain that comes with challenges and is telling me that the pain, whether it's from constant failure or shame and guilt is part of the challenge that Hashem wants you to grow from. It's not just the nisayon itself, the pain that comes with it also needs work to process.

Thanks for reading. 

Cant wait for therapy cuz I am feeling really lousy this week.

Hi I'm glad to see you back, I missed you. hope you still remember me...

I'm sorry for your fall. And I like your vort, I wish I would have a kosel to cry now, I can use it. (I also fell, and it fricken sucks)

wilnevergiveup wrote on 25 Jul 2022 13:38:

I'm sad to hear,
I also hit the +

Have you updated your 90 day chart ?

All the best

doingtshuva wrote on 25 Jul 2022 23:06:

I am using the "Success tracker" which only updates the following day.

Im sad to hear. I guess we're all human! 
I thought to myself that im good, and would Not fall again. Was I wrong!!

Im thinking. That we need to look at each time that we hold us back (even just couple minutes) we're a WINNER!! 

This Topic Name " The Truth" makes me feel anxious... I go to shul & work where people think of a nice & quiet person doesn't harm a fly..but they don't know mine real Truth

Ready2work wrote on 26 Jul 2022 08:20:

My real truth is that I am a guy who goes to shul, learns and people think I am a nice guy who works his brains out to be a better Jew. What about that is not the truth?

On the contrary, the fact that I am on this site is precisely because all that is true.