90days4ever wrote on 22 Jul 2020 08:11:
Hi guy's, hope all is well with you.
I have an admission to make. (Deep breath!)
I...Slipped, but didn't fall all the way.
Bassicly I was bored yesterday and i was on the internet and I let my guard down started Googleing you know how it goes and search moved on to images and then on to p stars with safe search on then GIFs with out me realising that I was on a downward spiral. BH caught myself before it was to late and didn't watch p or m, but was very close.
So I'm still clean..
However I transgressed on my tafshik vow.. so I ended up paying 150 dollars to tzedoka.. taking a 10 Min freezing cold shower which has cured me for life. I discovered this as a really effective way of killing urges.. and now gota run to finish the whole tehilim by this afternoon. . . Dont think I will be Googleing today... All the best.
@90days:
Maybe there is something wrong with me but I get more mechuzak by reading a post like this than when someone just posts that all is good. (Maybe I just relate better
) I just feel that this might be a certain level of preciousness to Hashem. I mean yes the slipping isn't good but man!! You sure know how to do some admittin', fixin' and growin'! (Can I do that too or does cordnoy have exclusivity?
) Thanx for the post!