dsd wrote on 10 Apr 2018 02:32:
Thanks for your response,
my problem is, that i always think that i did not see yet,
1.this kind of person,
2. in such a pose,
3. situation,
& its never ending. I think just the urge itself to watch porn i think i would of been able to resist, @ least that's what i think, its more im always thinking that im missing out on certain scenes that ive not seen yet & im looking for them.
does anyone know if thats considered more ocd or thats normal lust addiction
Thaks
When I used to try to break through my filters, I would search obsessively for an hour, and if I would finally get to a picture I would cover it with my hand because I didn’t want to see it- just wanted to see if I COULD see it. You can imagine how that worked out.
In my earlier stages, it was exactly how you described. And I always felt that if I must take THIS opportunity to act out, because if I don’t, we’ll, what will I do with this feeling? I’ll have this thought in my head telling me to do it, and it will just keep on being uncomfortable! Couldn’t do that.
OCD or not, I don’t know if you have to figure out what the root is as much as how can you work on fixing it.