An addiction so sweet so strong
An addiction so "right" so "wrong"

"NO I dont like it I tell you I don't!
"But an addiction. I won't leave it.. I won't"

You guess its called wiring why i remain
You are puzzled why someone would like all of this pain

Well you see its all about self-denegration
Self hate, sabatoge and flagelation

Why do i so want to lose?
Why is  it this  the life i choose???

Women are superior -WINNERS! -I am their cute failure to take care of
A fantasy yes to beware of

Some day I will get out...Or perhaps I won't I fear
Some days just to disappear

G-d throw me a life net of this I demand
To your unloyal servant with fractured hands 
To your unloyal servant with fractured hands

This message rings very true. Beautiful poem. Hopefully you've got the life net already. I think it should end on a higher note. 

instead of "To your unloyal servant with fractured hands "
I know i can be free just give me a hand.

Im not a poet, but you can use some more JOY!!
Have a great Chanuka!!

Dear Yosef 10
Thank you so very much for responding I am delighted you like my poem
You are right and Chasdei H-shem I am at a better place
I like your ending
I can tell you the technique I used ..Dont know where you are in sobriety and also how you feel about the storng women aspect
Would like to be in touch with  you if you would like at chaimkwass@gmail.com
Chanukah sameach
chaim

I really apreiceiate the offer, its just that i have a lot on my plate. I don't know if i can handle more people. Still, if you need my help (for WHATEVER reason), feel free to contact me at my private messaging . Hatzlacha in all that you do, have an amazing rest of the holiday.