Why? i still haven't done my full 90 yet...And you're well on your way, and a lot healthier than me in lots of ways, anyway. I hope to see you following close behind me on the chart someday...I mean, after you get the whole "living life" thing down, try to remember when you started being clean (it'll have been months ago), and just jump on the chart again.

SB, he is back.  All threads are more lively.  Didn't you miss IT25?  Everyone needs to keep up there great work and get to the 90 days and beyond.

silentbattle wrote on 25 Jan 2010 23:18:
Thanks my friend for the kind words but................................ :-\

I don't go in for kind words and empty compliments. I call 'em like I see 'em. You're a great person, constantly growing. There are different approaches, but ultimately, you want to be clean, long -term, and you're working towards it. And I know you, you're doing whatever you need to do to succeed.

Yes, Sci - he's back. And with the two of you back, there's nothing we can't do!

We all need each other.  KUTGW!!!

Thank God, things are good...Still struggling with a few issues in other areas, but clean and happy about it. Thank you, Hashem, thank you GYE, thank you, all.

Ahhh, yes....it is good to be alive! Not perfect...but GOOD!


(...what was that about?)

Well said, Dov ;D

I've been struggling recently, toying with a thought. I don't think it would even count as a fall, and yet I know it's not good, it's unhealthy, it's giving in to my weaknesses and needyness, and can lead to major issues.

OK...Basically, I have some "stories" I've written. They're good - very good. I'm tempted to post them somewhere, "just so that people can enjoy them." And I worked hard on those stories, I don't want to give them up. But I know that posting them somewhere, anywhere, can lead to unhealthy connections. And even if it doesn't, it's not a healthy move on my part.

So, even as I write this, I'm forced to face the fact that even saving those stories isn't a good thing. There's no possible healthy, holy use I could have for them.

.............................

There. They're deleted.

That should feel better than it does, shouldn't it? Well, maybe not. Giving things up hurts, even when we know it's the right thing, and ultimately good.

But I do know one thing for sure - I'm going to be happier than I would have been if I hadn't deleted it.

This post has been sponsored by SciCorp. Yeah...you reminded me that I need to focus on my own thread more. Thanks, bro.

I don't know what kind of stories you may have composed, but I'm assuming that if they merrit mention on this site, they are of such a nature.

Yasher Koach, may you be zocheh to burn many more bridges!!

I do not know what was in the stories, but if you think they were bad, then I think that is the smaret thing to do.  It shows much courage and conviction for your new and improved life.  You always seem to inspire.

Scicorp is glad to help in any way!!!  We work on us the most when we are in our own thread and it makes us actual work on us when you prepare to write in your own thread.  (Thats what I have noticed.)

They were stories of precisely that nature. And I know how much they would be enjoyed.

Part of the reason it was so hard was that regardless of the type of story, it was my own creative work. I liked having it, and sharing it with others, knowing that they would get pleasure out of it. I'm only thinking now that I may have even been hurting the people who were enjoying the stories so much.

You did something very selfless.  You really deep down wanted to keep them but decided not to.  I say write a new story and you will be even more proud of it, because it was done without needed the things that were in the old story to make them good.

KUTGW!!!

If you want to do a bigfavor for clal yisrael, use your tallent to write jewish books. There is too much junk out there, so bad that its barely better than the goyish stuff!

It would have to be a very different kind of story...and I've never really done that kind of thing. But people have told me to write books - although they were talking about books of filth. So I suppose my talent is real, and can be used for other things, too...

SE - I should...although short stories are much easier, and I've never really practiced writing fiction...