joeshmo wrote on 10 Feb 2010 16:42:
I don't no how to PM..and like I said right now i have alot of financial debt and the first thing to go is this computer...so I guess that will be a good "Filter"
I don't have time to think about my problems today...only how to get out of this mess...and you know what?? I know HaShem isn't going to help me do anything..he never has so why start now...thanks.
Dear Joshmo - First of all, you are not a shmoe. You are clearly a sweet yid. You see so much potential in yourself that your spiritual poverty tears your heart out. First you may need to face the facts of your situation. It sounds like you are doing that already. Getting on your feet finacially is so important.
However, I need to ask: Has your lust problem has hurt your finances at all?
Have you been spending money for schmutz, spending time for chasing and secrecy, and spending vital energy in the torture of having a double life?
To many of us who have been living this way for years, even decades, it seems that we have
not - even though the cost of our dependence on this trash
has been far-reaching and devastating. We often seem to be blind to it early on.
Hatzlocha rabba is your problems. Please avail yourself of chessed organizations if you feel you need to. Please.
PS. Did you go to the bathroom today? If so, then Hashem
does love and help this "Jo", and always has. Period. Say Asher Yotzar with a little smile, OK?