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Re: tryin 06 Mar 2014 02:17 #228525

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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


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Re: tryin 06 Mar 2014 02:23 #228527

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extra.

Sheesh! thnks
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: tryin 09 Apr 2014 08:03 #230160

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90....for the third time!

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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: tryin 10 Apr 2014 03:14 #230236

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KOT (Tankin')

Re: tryin 10 Apr 2014 19:53 #230270

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Mazel tov Cordnoy!
you da man!
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
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Re: tryin 02 May 2014 12:11 #231076

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GYE has just obtained an exclusive interview with HaRav Chaim Kanievsky shlit"a:

TZ: How is it that the R"Y shlit"a can add a new miktzoa to his seder halimud every year, and still find the time to complete kal hatorah kulah (bavli, yerushalmi, safra, sifri, tzetel katan, chumash mit da ohr hachaim hakadosh, divrei chaim, etc.)?

HCK"s: Same

TZ: The R"Y shlit"a is answerin' that it is the same way he was able to do it all these years?

HCK"s: Nods his head in agreement.

TZ: So then, perhaps I can ask: How did the R"Y shlit"a accomplish this feat the first year? Did the R"Y shlit"a actually think that he would complete Talmud Bavli in one year (besides all of his other sedorim)?

HCK"s: Humming

TZ: The R"Y shlita is referrin' to my song?

HCK"s: Nods his head in agreement.

TZ: One day?

HCK"s: Nods his head in agreement.

Tz: at a time?

HCK"s: Nods his head in agreement.

And in another exclusive of GYE, our London correspondent recently caught up with Adele, and asked her as follows:

PY: "Rumour has it" that you have been dietin' for the past year, so tell me: Why is that you can't lose weight? You need to "Set fire to the rain!" Don't you realize that this is what's holdin' you back from joinin' stardom like those other brooms? Why can't you "turn the tables"?

Adele: That's exactly the point.

PY: What is?

Adele: I keep thinkin' of becomin' one of those broomsticks and I keep fallin'. I will not be able to completely and forever stop eatin' chocolate cake with icing. It will not happen forever. I find myself "rollin' in the deep." Sometimes it lasts for a week; sometimes for three days, but forever!? I cannot do it. It just won't work. All I will be doin' is "chasin' pavement."

Amazin'!
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Last Edit: 02 May 2014 13:55 by cordnoy.

Re: tryin 02 May 2014 17:51 #231084

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Reb Chim Kanivesky singing One Day! That was really something, do you hear Nitzotz? It's way better than some chassidish dude swinging Matis on a hammock...

But Cordnoy! you left out the main part of the interview! He also told me:
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: tryin 02 May 2014 19:28 #231092

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lovin' it!
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
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The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ

Re: tryin 21 Jun 2014 01:12 #233885

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A quick update from someone who's not really here.

1. I have now been on GYE for over a year.
2. I have now been in recovery state for over a year.
3. I have fallen three times.
4. three falls in a year is an accomplishment.
5. I have not decided about returnin' to groups or here for that matter on a constant basis.
6. My week was numb, but the lust issue wasn't on my mind.
7. Someone is tryin' to get me to see a marital professional.
8. My marriage is really swell Thank God....this is huge!
9. While I have no desires this minute, I know I am addicted and I know I can fall any minute.
10. I have the tools not to take the "second look," and most of the time, I use them.
11. I wanna thank all the chevra here for all their support, especially when I am in the reachin' out stage.
12. I'd especially like to thank the chevra who reach out to me durin' hibernation time....like now.

Thanks

Good Shabbos

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GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.
Last Edit: 19 Feb 2016 00:04 by cordnoy.

Re: tryin 22 Jun 2014 07:31 #233901

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Thank you for the update, it's good to see you here even if it's not definitive!!!

Would you mind sharing the pros and cons are regarding coming here consistently? I understand that SA is an hour each way, are there other tz'dadim?
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Re: tryin 23 Jun 2014 01:16 #233935

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WOW!!!!

And i know you're not even "hoping" to be clean!
I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com

My name is Daniel, I go to face to face meetings and I work the 12 steps with a sponsor. 

Re: tryin 23 Jun 2014 23:27 #233986

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Guard Your Eyes is affiliated with the following program for teens.

FORTIFY

They say it's a great program for teens and free if you are under 20 (drats! Missed that by a few.)

b'hatzlachah
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: tryin 24 Jun 2014 00:00 #233991

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they told me that in an email.
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads:
GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: tryin 24 Jun 2014 00:57 #233995

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hello cordnoy,
i don't have any good advice to give. but i want you to know that i'm davening for you.
your friend lavi.
i love you all

Re: Tryin' 25 Jun 2014 16:39 #234119

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An update from a strugglin' yesterday:

I still was fightin' this numbness and not carin' attitude from my fall last Sunday, and as the numbness wore off, I was tiltin' or turnin' but in the wrong direction....mindset that it.
I still had connection with Romanian in pocket.
Then, several things happened at one time.

1. A GYE friend was on the phone with me. He has struggles in marriage and made a connection with an old female friend from years ago. We spoke for a while how our issues are similar, yet different, but perhaps the "addiction" is an underlyin' similarity. I wasn't givin' or offerin' advice; just sharin' my recovery and what works for me and what doesn't and how my mindset is presently confused....unlike the past six months when my lustful thoughts and fantasies would have been shut down.

2. Frum local aspirin' therapist friend (I will leave out the word woman, so you don't get confused and that you don't jump all over me) is applyin' pressure that I should take this to the next level. Yes, I am in SA, but I am not really workin' the program and steps and it is not religiously. She (oops) wants me to go to a local specialist, one who deals with these types of issues on a full-blown scale. I am scared, petrified and in general, hesitant....all types of reasons. Ultimately, it is probably for my benefit, but I was shakin' (literally) with concerns.

3. At the same time, Romanian clicked in....didn't realize (yea...sure?) that yahoo messenger was on and active, and she said: hello. She is also a therapist and I explained to her again my confusion. She asked me: What would be my scenario of a perfect life? I listed her a few things: Good marriage (which I basically have now....very content); family stuff (but who doesn't have); a bit more parnasah (usual); and most importantly.....no cheatin' on wife; sexual sobriety; no dual life (death) livin'. She responded: So....to reach those goals, what is dependent on you (meaning 'me')? I replied with the only possible answer (and one that she knew I would provide) that we must part ways again; it is the only way. I didn't say goodbye this time, for my goodbye's are worth diddly and who knows, but I did delete yahoo messenger from phone (again) and in the process of blockin' the reinstallation process.

As I am wont to say: So there!

Feelin' better today.

What will be tomorrow?
Who da @#$% cares?

Today, I'll be ok.

Thanks

b'hatzlachah to all
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads:
GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.
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