RT

Just thought you should know, in your merit Im starting accountability with my friend For looking now as well, had some slips last night and your program popped into my head so were setting it up

Thanks!

SHABBBBATTTTT SHALOMMM!!!!

This shabbes night something happened to me.
first. i had a dream that i did it. that i fell. mz"l (lo aleynu velo alechem). i woke up and thought "OY WEY! how comes? just like this you fall? without even having a fight? AAAAA! " i was mamash in shock until i finally realized , it was just a nightmare. (to me it is). BARUCH hashem, no keri.
what do you think happens next? i close my eyes and the next one starts ( i never before had 2 in row/1 night).
that somebody was having fun with a certain girl. and i thought "chaval that i will not be able to do it with my wife". (i hate this thought...)
i think my father woke me up for shaharis just before Keri should've happened.
so, bechasde haShem i was saved fom keri twice the previous night. i am still stikkle sad about the thoughts i had during the 2nd dream.

well. pretty hard in my home town (i left yeshiva recently). a lot of exceptionally good looking girls here -.-

i think i'll have to pay like 20 bugs for not closing eyes ...

but still clean. (17 days.)

@JKG thank you for making sure that i will have at least some merits when i come to the yom hadin.
(lemaase the main zechus goes to reb mottel, who initiated the the matzav)

hatzlocho.

SOH, thanks for your chizuk lines
i am thinking of joining the accountability group, maybe

easy and meaningful fast, everyone

kevin

i thinnk t9he numbers are drastically higher for married people..............and for a good reason! i dont think anyone who is not married has ever made it past a year, therefore, why try?

still all clean bh.3rd day.RT i dont think wet dreams count because your not in control....

correct me if i am wrong, but 3 days are a big success for u, TMC, no? : )

and well, yea, i never intended to say that it somehow counts as a fall. no, just wanted to share it. the good thing in sharing is, that after you wrote/said it, you dont have to think about it anymore (at least by me).

@michael. dear michael.
to my shame i cant say "ho, you are wrong, i am single and got more than a year clean". but, do you really think, that since nobody ever achieved a clean year (what btw is not right) nobody should try? all records in guiness book work like this. nobody before ever did it. and THAN. and THAN! this one fellow accomplished the impossible.
turns out, that it was not SOOO impossible.

ein hakadosh baruch hu, ba betruniya (be-teraniya) im beriyoysov : )

beshem haShem naase venatzliach.

hatzlocho guys/GYE's
stil clean. yo

still clean since joining accountability group here thanks RT and TMC

Kevin please do join us.

Something that I heard on Shabbos I cant remember the whole thing but here is something nice I got from it:

why in hebrew where the makeup of words have meaning, is the plural word for men anashim shouldn't the plural for ish be ishiem? the reason is, because a group of men is not just a collection of individuals, it is a separate entity with separate rules and capabilities that don't apply to individual men, therefore the root is a little different.
Also when the torah refers to anashim it usually is referring to tzadikim
(sorry I don't know the original source for this)

so please join in with the anashim tzadikm here and feel the power of a group.

May the zechus of all the Anashim tzadikim on this forum regardless of accountability group association just being part of this group effort to fight this giant threat to this generations yidishkiet, bring us closer to the rebuilding of the temple, so we can really have a true relationship with Hashem.

SOH

Progress not perfection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U-u-u-mayn!!

@TMC: who spoke about perfection?



1 more reason to stay clean. (in my opinion at least)

I remember in the beginning of the year (tishrei) as i had some clean months behind me. i felt mamash i was THE MAN. as i went along the street, i was not scared of anything. why should've I? i did what haShem wanted me to do, so why should anybody be allowed to harm me.

and now? i am always scared and get pachad from each noise (i am already tired of it). why? no bitochon.why not? how can somebody like me have bitochon? based on what? on me doing rotzon haShem? so thats my knas now, to be scared of these goyim, dogs, and whatever else is there around.
isn't it better just to stay clean and be the king? i think yes.
i want it back.
please. haShem! please take me back to you.

hatzlocho.


p.S.: kevin, common, join us we will be nice to you. promise.

Ive felt that way many times. Such a good feeling on top, So scared on bottom!

18 days, still clean.

but had a bad experience this night (keri). intressant. shabbes night 2 dreams with non-kosher content and no keri. and this night keri and i cant recall any dreams.

i have kinda mixed feelings with it. from 1 side, its keri. nothing to be happy about. from the other side, its a eydus that i am not mas***. yuhu??

keep up the fight.

another clean night 4th bot only bc of acctblty otherwise i would have messed up i woke up in the middle of the night all fired up when i remembered the acctblty.problem is im feeling righrt lusty now

well, you know, i felt that way to day as well. on a certain point i understood, that i am alone at home. and nobody will come in the next hour. grrr. "do whatever you want"-feeling.
baruch haShem, haShem azar.hatzlocho, MTC!

KOT, as they say here.

hey, RT, how much is a fine in shekels?!?!?!

RT, I would say that's pretty normal at this stage. You've got almost 3 weeks clean and your body is adjusting. Like you said, it actually may be a sign that you're doing something right.

KUTGW & KOMT!!!!

Gevura!