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Re: For how long by now? 04 Nov 2012 04:05 #147161

gevura shebyesod
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Woodford is life, buddy! ;D

!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant

My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: For how long by now? 04 Nov 2012 17:10 #147180

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	dov wrote on 04 Nov 2012 03:56: You either need to get a life, or get more Woodford. It's one or the other, buddy. Poor me, poor me, pour me some Woodford please. [Easier than getting a life.]
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: For how long by now? 04 Nov 2012 20:46 #147191

rt Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 260 Karma: 0	Day Numba ONE Had a vocation >.<

Re: For how long by now? 05 Nov 2012 04:21 #147204

gyejuda Current streak: 116 days OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Posts: 5 Karma: 0	Day number 10!!! one day at time knowing I´m not alone, I´ve got help from above :D

Re: For how long by now? 05 Nov 2012 17:34 #147233

mr. emunah Current streak: 121 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1139 Karma: 43	Day #6!

Re: For how long by now? 05 Nov 2012 19:45 #147257

rt
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Ok. Everything I've achieved 'til now was through the TaPHSic-method. And always when I've fallen after a good while was 'cuz I stoped TaPHSic. Kumt oys, I have to start again.
So here is my plan.
('til next moytze shabbes)

-guard your brain (if not, pay 10 bugs penalty for each "not-guarding")
-guard your mouth (if not, pay 1 bug penalty for each bad word bli neder)
-guard your eyes (if not, pay 1 bug for each second look haha!)
-guard your hmm..yea..your bris koydesh (!) (and if not, pay 100 bugs! to a tzedaka of your choice)

Okay, now It should be easier.

chatzlocho.

btw, let me share 1 thing. As I was in the "fell into the dirt"-situation I had the possibility to watch some videos. and after kim'at 15 or even more months of NOT-looking I was matir to myself to do it now. So as it usually works is, that we have 2 dinnim by this videos. 1 - they are disgusting. 2 - they are very exciting. And since 2 is so strong we forget 1. So as I started to look. I realized. That af al pi that I was going to fall now (and I did fell -.-) 1 was more stronger that 2, with other words, it was disgusting (and even offending) in such a way, that I DECIDED not to look. (and btw, the first seconds of the vid. that i saw was nothing special, I mean, it's not the video, its me who changed. (well, changed not enough...but still..)).

chatzlocho

Re: For how long by now? 05 Nov 2012 19:53 #147260

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Chizzuk Mail number 1:

Every time you say "no" to your obsessions, it is priceless. It's another step up, and no step goes to waste. Remember this parable: Even if someone is heading out to the other side of town and on the way he slips on the ice, all he needs to do it just get up and continue. But slipping never takes a person all the way back home. Even if you slip, you are still where you were when you fell. You just need to stand yourself up and continue on from where you left off... JUST DON'T STAY ON THE FLOOR!

Is it actually true?

Re: For how long by now? 07 Nov 2012 05:22 #147375

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	All this great clean time is - well, great! But this is still making me laugh my gartle off: TehillimZugger wrote on 04 Nov 2012 17:10: You either need to get a life, or get more Woodford. It's one or the other, buddy. Poor me, poor me, pour me some Woodford please. [Easier than getting a life.]
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 08 Nov 2012 14:29 #147446

melost Current streak: 4 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 206 Karma: 4	10 days since i found gye (sorry im not donating have to pay off debt of $800 to phone com for sex chat) know that it cant last will start again then thank you hashem
	avrohom

Re: For how long by now? 21 Nov 2012 17:55 #148277

rt Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 260 Karma: 0	Shalom dear Chevra. Had more or less some days clean. (okay, lemayse it WAS clean.) and then..well yea. have to start again. Today day number 1/2

Re: For how long by now? 21 Nov 2012 18:13 #148285

gevura shebyesod
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Hey welcome back! Sorry to hear about your reset, but that's exactly what it is. Reset. Doesn't matter what happened before. Start from scratch, only today is what counts.

Hatzlacha!

Re: For how long by now? 22 Nov 2012 07:34 #148318

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Gevura wrote on 21 Nov 2012 18:13:

Hey welcome back! Sorry to hear about your reset, but that's exactly what it is. Reset. Doesn't matter what happened before. Start from scratch, only today is what counts.

Hatzlacha!

I know you do not mean it this way, BB, but all too often, our sperm coming out is just that: a reset button. The ultimate reset button.

Our way to finally regain the old sanity - the bitter regret that seems to free us from the obsession....for a while. A way for us to guarantee we will again feel close to Hashem, that Torah will again make sense to us inside. A reset button. As the White Book put it, "The only way we knew to be free of it, was to do it." Beautiful, simple. After 10 days, 20 days, 90 days of fighting, clawing to stay afloat...we finally give in because of battle fatigue...of course.

That's not what orgasm is for, not what sperm is for.

That's not recovery, at all. I do not want it, and I doubt Tatty wants that for you, either - and I doubt you want it, either. Right?

Just wanted to share that thought, and hope no one here misconstrues it as criticizing.

Party on!

- Dov

"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 25 Nov 2012 21:27 #148500

rt Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 260 Karma: 0	day 4...andahalf "The only way we knew to be free of it, was to do it." oy, so true...

Re: For how long by now? 29 Nov 2012 20:35 #148684

rt Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 260 Karma: 0	had quite a fight today and was able to say no. and than i fell...a few times... so 0